Kiki's Diary-It's TIME!!

[kiki7]

Hi everyone

I am a 38yo mum and professional musician and it is well and truly time to sort myself out!

In 2008 my son died and ever since then I have used food and alcohol as a crutch, something to numb the pain I guess. As a result I am a whopping 14stone13lbs, the heaviest I have been in years (I used to weight 19stone at my heaviest but had stayed pretty much the same after I lost that weight at about 12 and a half stone)

The start of this year I decided to give up drinking for a year and make a real effort to get healthy so that I could enjoy our new son who is now almost 4. I have also lost so much confidence these last few months which is making my work really hard now. Its difficult to stand in front of people and entertain when you dont feel confident about yourself

Anyway, thanks to one of my very best friends (Nicpic on here), I have ordered my stuff & crossing my fingers it will come on Monday and I can get started. Im ready and I need to get this done once and for all! I just want to get back in to all my lovely size 14 vintage clothes

So anyway......HI! *waves*
Kiki xxxx

 

[Nicpic]

Hi babes and welcome Everyone on this forum is gorgeous and so supportive. Make sure you have a good read of everyones diaries and success stories. It's really inspiring. We'll get there together xxx

 

[kiki7]

Well day one and here we go! I've only ever done Cambridge that is like this before & there were a few reasons why I couldnt stick to it....less about the actual diet and more about everything going on around the time I tried. SO I have the right headspace now and Im good to go....so here we go fat, its time to say goodbye! *shakes fist*
x

 

[PrettyPaula]

welcome, how are you getting on ? x

 

[kiki7]

Thanks for asking Paula
I'm doing ok. Just had 200gms of broccoli & 100gms of turkey for tea. Off to a meeting now, then home for a shake then bed I think. I've drunk tons of water so no headache but been a bit tired. I've stuck to it though so patting myself on the back
Early night tonight though methinks
Xxx

 

[ilikepencils]

I've had plenty of early nights this week, defo helps! Good luck, sounds like your first day has gone well xx

 

[helenphilpots]

Hiya, I am just starting on the plan! How are you finding it?
Good Luck!

Helen xx

 

[kiki7]

I've found it ok today Helen. The water makes a big difference although I've spent all day on the loo! Good luck with it xxx

 

[PrettyPaula]

hope youre okay Kiki! xx

 

[kiki7]

Well today has been tough! I'm really hoping that the hunger wears off a bit tomorrow as I've really struggled with it today. I've stuck to plan 100% though despite feeling like I could eat my iPad at times, that's of course in between toilet visits!
I'm at a wedding tomorrow which won't be easy but I'm not too worried as I've been not drinking since January anyway, and up until I started this, I wasn't eating anything with gluten, so I was pretty limited anyway. And I've already been to two other weddings eating like that, so it should be ok.
I did get some sugar free gum which really helped me so that may become a big part of my strategy going forward I think
Hope everyone is doing ok & here's to a great day tomorrow.
Kiki xxx

 

[PrettyPaula]

WTG for resisting even with the serious hunger monkeys. i know the feeling believe me!

hope the rain clears up for the wedding, or at least the photos! x