Life begins at 40!!!

[sunshine1]

Today is my 1st anniversary of my weight loss plan and i am 4lb short of 5st lighter than i was a year ago today

It has flown by.

Ok, when i started last October i thought i would have been at goal within a year. It didn't quite work like that as i took a 5 month holiday off the plan (silly biatch)

when i check this in another years time, i will be at my goal lol

I did manage a 2lb loss this week which is very surprising

Anniversary pics to follow

 

[enlightenme2]

Congrats Gilly wish I could say the same for me!! You have such strong willpower! I guess what's really important is that we keep at it and never give up right?

 

[Tessieg1]

Congrats Gilly, that is amazing! I would very much like to do the same thing - to check in a year and have lost a minimum of 5st!
You are doing so well and I can't wait to see your pics.
Have a great day.

 

[sunshine1]

Congrats Gilly wish I could say the same for me!! You have such strong willpower! I guess what's really important is that we keep at it and never give up right?

Thanks hon.
Unfortunately my willpower has got up and gone. I have done nothing but pick the past couple of days and have been going out of my way to buy sweet sticky puddings which is something that i have never eaten before this diet. What the hell is going on, grrrrr

Well, i did post my anniversary pics and had lovely comments which are very much appreciated. It is nice to get a nice reaction from others. Still don't feel like i look which is a really weird feeling.

Hopefully my next update will be more positive x

Off to give myself a good talking to

 

[enlightenme2]

Yes Gilly I understand it all, going through very much the same phase right now!!! willpower melting away, eve though the clothes fit much better and looser, I still feel like i still have 50 lbs to lose, andI don't realise I've gotten smaller, i still have what i call "fat" reflexes... always head for back of the room, always paranoid someones looking at me thinking "god shes an oinker!!".... negative crap

You look real good in your album, do you work out? you look quite toned too. I think the sabotage has got to do with being close to goal, i can't help but think that's my prob. anyways chica, we gotta be stronger than pudding or banana bread!

 

[sunshine1]

5st lost

Enlighten, thank you for that. You make so much sense. Just noticed that we both have the same to lose. Who will get there first???

No, i don't work out, that is just too much like hard work for me, lol, i am too lazy for that.

I really should but i doubt it would make much difference to my saggy skin, it's just to far stretched lol

Well, i took to hibernating for a few days and got my head sorted so hopefully i can stay in this zone whilst the going's good.

A 2lb loss this week took me down to 5st lost and i feel brilliant and sooo proud (puffs chest out)

I am full of what ifs but not dwelling on it just got to look to my slimmer future!


Went and gave blood yesterday.....big mistake!
I usually feel fine after it but not this time, lol.

I haven't given in the last year due to the diet so i thought now that i am kinda doing n810 - 1000 plan i should be alright.

I had a shake at bout 2pm then when i got to the hospital at bout 3.30 i ate a bar. They tested my iron which was quite high so had to test it again and it was perfect.
Gave blood without a problem, usually they can't find my veins. Must be all the blubber that was hiding them.

So, after taking my pint i sat with my coffee and a biscuit then left.
Popped into Tesco on way home and felt a bit light headed but never thought anything of it. Drove the 5 miles home, got in and started prepping tea.

Went all light headed and had to quickly sit down. My partner kept asking if i was alright but i couldn't speak, just kept panting then totally flaked out.

I have never fainted before and it felt weird. When i came round he got me to the sofa and put my feet up. I kinda felt weak all night and light headed.

So looks like i won't give blood in a hurry, well, as long as i am on CD.

Last night of nightshift tonight so off to get a few zzzz's in. x

 

[sunshine1]

2 weeks pass sooo quick but i guess i had nothing much to write about.

Been slightly naughty with nights out, lots of drinks and fine food but trying to stick to plan when not socialising!

Losses aren't great but at least i'm still losing.

Got my measurements done last week.

Waist started at 46" and is now 36"

Hips started at 52" and now 44"

Bust started at 49" and now 42"

Arms were 16" and now 14"

Thighs were 26" and now 24"

Treated myself to a short slinky little black lacy dress for xmas night out.....size 14

Don't expect a loss this week or maybe just 1lb if i'm lucky. Got a major night out on sat so really need to try and be good til then

 

[sunshine1]

Feeling pretty good this week. Not a huge loss but am less than a stone heavier than my partner

Never in my wildest dreams did i believe that i could ever weigh 12st.

I know i am not at goal but it does feel achievable now. Think this is the first time i have felt that positive.

I haven't been sticking to plan but have been careful. Just seem to have too many things going on just now, nights out, family meals and the cold weather. I struggle with the shakes in this cold weather. It just chills me from the inside out and then can't get a heat in me for the rest of the day.

Hopefully get under that 12st mark next week.....drink in moderation this weekend

 

[sunshine1]

Not been around here much.....too busy stuffing my face

Looking around the boards just now which will hopefully get me back on track.

I do my wii every day and since Friday i have gained 7lb i was expecting a gain but that is not funny!

Yeh, i have eaten to extreme but still didn't think i could gain that much.

I am disappointed in myself for giving in. My head just said do it and i did to the extreme.

Ok, it's monday and i am planning to get back on track but my thoughts are wandering to bingeing again. Why do i do it!!!!!

Can't put any more weight on. My little black dress won't fit me on Friday.

I know i can do it so why can't i!!!!!!

Enough of the self pity!
Off to boot myself up the backside

 

[sunshine1]

I'm back after almost 10yrs.
Back on CD.
I started CD last week and could have cried when I got weighed. Im heavier than my start weight of nearly 10 yrs ago.
I never did get to be that slim bride that I was aiming for. I had a stone to lose to get to goal but decided that 11st 6lb was good for me. My family and friends started telling me that I looked Ill.
I kept most of the weight off for a couple of years. I had a huge traumatic life changing event happen at the end of 2012 which set me off on a downward spiral. I started gaining weight then losing a stone here and there but always put it back on and more.
So here I am with my 50th coming up in a few months and I'm the heaviest I have ever been.
This time I'm doing it for me.
I haven't worked out how to change my stats on here so apologies.

CD 810
25/06/2019.....18st 2lb
01/07/2019.....17st 6lb