BermudaGirl
Member
Hey people, I am back after 2 years and putting on more weight. So I am going to lay it out there for the world to see and for me to see it myself. Somehow I am 23 stone. How the hell that happened I do not know but too much booze and loving sweet and chicken Hong Kong style is probably the reason. It was my birthday on Thursday and someone took a photo that is attached and I thought WTF I literally look like I am going to eat those people. Also I’ve met someone at work and while he is not the reason I want to lose weight he is defo the catalyst. I think anyone who is overweight and had thought what will his friends think of me, what if people laugh in the street at us holding hands knows how I feel. It’s all very well saying big and beautiful and confidence and all that malarkey but this is abOut how I feel and to be honest, it’s been a long time coming, I realize I have become the master of excuses for my own unhealthy lifestyle - like having the scales in pounds rather than stone because somehow psychologically it doesn’t look at shocking or mum passing two years ago. I used to have a life of going out and dancing all night and having great fun. I’ve turned into this sad person whose best friend is just eat and deliveroo. It’s going to stop and that is starting today. I’m 23 stone and my first goal is 20 stone. Then it will be 18 stone. Then it will be 16 stone. And that’s as far as I can think right now. Small steps, big leaps. This website is invaluable. I need to make friends on this journey. I have a bad relationship with food as it’s my friend in darkness. It’s painful being the confident successful person at work and then the lonely ball at home having one night stands because that’s all I feel I deserve. I’ve just been so honest I’ve shocked myself but I’m here to make change starting TODAY. Xxx
