Hi Cherish.....
Ok I will be the one to do some upfront heavy talk!!!!
You did really welll the first week 8lb if I'm not mistaken followed by 1lb? So 9lb over two weeks.... that is a fab first fortnight.....
You say you really want this. so you need to start being straight with yourself!
Write down on a bit of paper all the reasons you want to be slim, then write down the reasons you want to remain fat.... you should have a lot more reasons int he first column.... then you need to ask yourself which foods are causing disruption to your diet.... think of each food then think about what it's true worth is when compared to getting your dream of slimness!!
I was a sucker for crisps!! Loved them by the multi pack!!!! My hubby and I could eat 4 packs at a time.. unfortunately he is 6foot and 11st!!! I ate a packet of crisps and really tasted them... I mean I licked the flavour off, then ate the things... and when I was honest it tasted greasy and actualyl not that fantastic... so it was easy to think OK slimdom is more attractive than this!!!
We all crave foods when we are lsoing weight, it's our personal sabbotarge systems kicking in... but you have to decide to take control.... You CAN do it.. SW is not hard... maybe a bit tricky to get your head around the rules, but the actual amounts and types of food you can eat is NOT a punishment.... I had a wonderful SYN free Korma tonight with a salad <always eat my curreis with sald even when not dieting> I have egg and chips.... I have spag bol, salmon and chips....
Most meals are possible by mixing the healthy extras in with meals and using your syns wisely.... you need never be hungry.....
I know that I CAN have crisps if I want them.... If I crave them I tell myself to wait half an hour and if after a drink I still want them, I would have them.... often acknowledging the craving and knowing you can eat the damn thing ttakes away the craving so you don't end up eating it.....
Find the bit inside of you that will fight for you!
Every week I now have a day totally to myself when the kids are at school I take myself off for the whole day!!! Pure me time! You have to start treating yourself with the respect you deserve!
You are here asking all of us for help.. so you obviosuly do want it.... but no one can do this for you..... for any of us.... but even though you have to do the work yourself we can be here for each other....
I am no diet expert.... I have dieted on and off for 30 years... this time though with the big 40 approaching I have realized that I REALLY want it this time, and I AM going to do it.... thats what you need to tell yourself... find a reason... any reason thats important to you.. and use it to help you fight this fight....
It doesn't matter how much weight you have put back on!!!! You can't go back and undo the damage... just from now, move forward and you will soon be stones lighter!
Good luck < and I only went on as you requested a kick up the bum although you didn't use those words

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Anne x