QtNutmeg
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Today, walking out of a test I knew had gone badly I was about to head directly to the supermarket when I realised that instead I could come home and rant here instead.
Self control thanks to minimins= 1
Binge reflex= 0.
So, have decided to keep online diary of ups and downs, give myself a space to have a bit of a rant (I hope this is an ok place to do this as am still very much a newbie here) and examine the emotions and events that lead me to get a bit (hmmm ok alot) out of control when it comes to food. I use it as a distraction, a pick-me-up, a friend, an enemy, a constant that I can control - yet it controls me! Thats why I've come back to weight watchers. I want a healthy relationship with food! Other times when I diet I become afraid of it - so I either binge or eat nothing except 'healthy' foods, terrified that one tast of a fry or piece of chocolate is going to send me into a frenzy of overeating, which, inevitably, it would.
So here I am, 21, studying at Uni, and making another fresh start in order to find some zen when it comes to food and exercise. I know its going to be tough and that there is no magic bullet or 3-wish genie (unless anyones got his number?????)- but I feel like minimins is really going to make a difference this time. The tough times I find are when I look at how long it will take till I look the way I want, or not seeing a difference on the scales when I feel there damn well should be, or having a slipup and feeling like I may as well go all out. But now I can come here and know that there are sooo many others out there going through exactly the same struggles and setbacks and still achieving their dreams.
Song for the week: Lean on Me
And to make this a legit weightloss diary-
Week 1: -4lbs
Week 2: umm haven't really settled on weigh in day so kinda putting it off but will do soon
Today, walking out of a test I knew had gone badly I was about to head directly to the supermarket when I realised that instead I could come home and rant here instead.
Self control thanks to minimins= 1
Binge reflex= 0.
So, have decided to keep online diary of ups and downs, give myself a space to have a bit of a rant (I hope this is an ok place to do this as am still very much a newbie here) and examine the emotions and events that lead me to get a bit (hmmm ok alot) out of control when it comes to food. I use it as a distraction, a pick-me-up, a friend, an enemy, a constant that I can control - yet it controls me! Thats why I've come back to weight watchers. I want a healthy relationship with food! Other times when I diet I become afraid of it - so I either binge or eat nothing except 'healthy' foods, terrified that one tast of a fry or piece of chocolate is going to send me into a frenzy of overeating, which, inevitably, it would.
So here I am, 21, studying at Uni, and making another fresh start in order to find some zen when it comes to food and exercise. I know its going to be tough and that there is no magic bullet or 3-wish genie (unless anyones got his number?????)- but I feel like minimins is really going to make a difference this time. The tough times I find are when I look at how long it will take till I look the way I want, or not seeing a difference on the scales when I feel there damn well should be, or having a slipup and feeling like I may as well go all out. But now I can come here and know that there are sooo many others out there going through exactly the same struggles and setbacks and still achieving their dreams.
Song for the week: Lean on Me
And to make this a legit weightloss diary-
Week 1: -4lbs
Week 2: umm haven't really settled on weigh in day so kinda putting it off but will do soon