Hi BL
I did LL the same time as you first time round in 2008, lost 3stone, started gaining the second I stopped losing.
You did brilliantly to maintain as long as you did, what was your secret? When did you start losing the motivation?
Great to see you back, your diary was amazing, you're a great writer!
Now been doing Lipotrim for 4 weeks, 20lbs down! Would have done LL again, I liked the group but the councellors in my area are both rubbish (and obese) so couldn't justify the extra cost. Will check in with you tho if you don't mind.
x
Hi Munch.
My secret to maintaining was loving my new lifestyle so much that nothing would get in the way of the health and happiness I was feeling. I committed to the fact that one has to exercise, in order to keep weight off, so I exercised regularly - an hour walk most days of the week, and a 2-4 hour walk on the weekends. I also trid to swim as often as possible. And I never in my life felt better.
The reason I have lapsed so disasterously, is I had an awful AWFUL year last year. I lost my 92 year old mum in an awful accident - spent days in hospital with her in a Burn Ward watching her fight for her life - which she ultimately lost. I saw a lot of death in that ward, and it was extremely traumatixc. Most people in burn wards do not survive - and it was very graphic.
As a result of her death, my family was turned upside down and inside out. My auntie died at the same time, my life long friend of 35 years stabbed me in the back when my mom died, my brother became homeless and suicidal - and moms finances were a shambles. We lost the family home my father built with his own blood sweat and tears - another death in itself - it was the only home I ever knew. Trying to cope with all of this transatlantically just got to be too much to bear. Iw as diagnosed with Post Traumatic Stress, and was signed off work and put on anti depressants, and counseling.
Eventually, I realised through it all Ihad lost all my coping mechanisms, and tools, and routines - I just lost sight of everything last year. It was cleary the year from hell.
So, I don;t beat myself up too much, because had that not happened, I know I would be exactlywhere I was weight wise. It was just to much, and i found y breaking point where the need for comfort outweighed everything else.
it made me realise, that when it comes to weigh - life will be a slippery slope forever. I suppose it is no diferent for any type of addiction....food, drugs...alcohol - its all the same.
Its been a hard year, with hard and difficult lessons - but in life I have found those are usually the most important ones.
So, here I am - determined to get back to my sold footing and pick up where I left off. I know I will do it, there is not a doubt in my mind.
So much of this really trully is mind over matter. Ifyuo want it badly eough, you will get it and keep it.
So thats my goal, and a quick blast of my story.
Good luck to you - remember this works, as long as we are willing to put in, and KEEP putting in the work.
xxx
