chunkychicken
Full Member
For the past week or so (in preparation for LL) I have been saying goodbye to all my previous crutches food wise. Pasta, rice, potatos, choc, sweets and puddings, I haven't binged, but I haven't stinged either. LOL.
I have been a total B***CH all week, seemingly unable to control my mood, emotions, paranoia etc and also been exhausted. To such a point that I was really beginning to think I had some form of mental health problem (seriously!)
I put all this down to the fact that I had been forcing myself to truly accept where I am right now with my physical self. Having moved into a new apartment which has not just one, but two full length mirrors and a bathroom with a completely mirrored wall (so you can see the whole horror in the shower eeek) I could no longer just look at my head and shoulders view of myself in the mirror and convince myself that I don't look that bad for someone of my weight (20 stone plus)!
So I figured the tearful, jibbering wreck I have been recently was all down to that. My poor OH has been terrified, wondering what the hell was going on as I wouldn't let him touch me, snapped at him every time he says he loves me or that he thinks I am beautiful with some comment like "well we all know you are crazy" or something similar.
Today I have not had any high carb food at all - usually would have a huge scone with butter and jam for breakfast - but today had 3 pieces of fruit and a low fat natural yogurt and lunch a tuna salad with no dressing (just some balasmic vinegar). I keep waiting for the crushing tiredness and inability to hold a civil conversation to descend as it usually does mid morning - sending me scuttling to the canteen for a "pick me up" - but it never came. I feel alert and OK for the first time in ages. My OH (who works in the same place) met me for lunch and was amazed that I was not just a big grump as I usually am complaining that I want to go home etc etc and that I hate work etc etc.
I have had hypoglycaemia since I hit puberty - and have always been aware that I need to space my meals carefully and eat slow burning carbs like pasta and rice to see me through to the next meal or I have a "hypo crash" and shake like a leaf, generally act drugged and slur until I find some sugar to sort me out - but if today is anything to go off, I have been doing the complete opposite to what I should have been doing.
Has anyone else experienced similar reactions to high carb food - just interested. I usually have a terrible memory, awful mood swings and impulse control, brain fog and at periods through the day feel so exhausted that I feel unable to even speak or function. I cannot believe how much better I feel today (which is worrying because it probably means I am going to have the WORST withdrawl in the next few days... eeek... or well better than in week one of foundation!!)
I have been a total B***CH all week, seemingly unable to control my mood, emotions, paranoia etc and also been exhausted. To such a point that I was really beginning to think I had some form of mental health problem (seriously!)
I put all this down to the fact that I had been forcing myself to truly accept where I am right now with my physical self. Having moved into a new apartment which has not just one, but two full length mirrors and a bathroom with a completely mirrored wall (so you can see the whole horror in the shower eeek) I could no longer just look at my head and shoulders view of myself in the mirror and convince myself that I don't look that bad for someone of my weight (20 stone plus)!
So I figured the tearful, jibbering wreck I have been recently was all down to that. My poor OH has been terrified, wondering what the hell was going on as I wouldn't let him touch me, snapped at him every time he says he loves me or that he thinks I am beautiful with some comment like "well we all know you are crazy" or something similar.
Today I have not had any high carb food at all - usually would have a huge scone with butter and jam for breakfast - but today had 3 pieces of fruit and a low fat natural yogurt and lunch a tuna salad with no dressing (just some balasmic vinegar). I keep waiting for the crushing tiredness and inability to hold a civil conversation to descend as it usually does mid morning - sending me scuttling to the canteen for a "pick me up" - but it never came. I feel alert and OK for the first time in ages. My OH (who works in the same place) met me for lunch and was amazed that I was not just a big grump as I usually am complaining that I want to go home etc etc and that I hate work etc etc.
I have had hypoglycaemia since I hit puberty - and have always been aware that I need to space my meals carefully and eat slow burning carbs like pasta and rice to see me through to the next meal or I have a "hypo crash" and shake like a leaf, generally act drugged and slur until I find some sugar to sort me out - but if today is anything to go off, I have been doing the complete opposite to what I should have been doing.
Has anyone else experienced similar reactions to high carb food - just interested. I usually have a terrible memory, awful mood swings and impulse control, brain fog and at periods through the day feel so exhausted that I feel unable to even speak or function. I cannot believe how much better I feel today (which is worrying because it probably means I am going to have the WORST withdrawl in the next few days... eeek... or well better than in week one of foundation!!)