CoCoMo
Full Member
You know, men suck sometimes! I have a bizarre situation with my best male friend which crashed into my belief in my weight loss goals last night. Him and me have had a...let's call it a "thing"... for months now and we both like each other very much, but we both have some complexities around actually being together so technically, we are just friends.
I was talking to him about my CD plan and saying how much weight I wanted to lose, and he said "why would you want to lose weight? You've got a gorgeous figure and you are beautiful". Well, obviously my heart skipped a beat and my usual cool and composed attitude melted a little. It took me a good amount of self restraint not to fall into the usual trap of going home with him, and when I got home alone, I ate . Not loads, but enough to make me VERY annoyed with myself for emotional eating. I have kept myself awake for much of the night, thinking about what he said to me and beating myself up for falling off plan. :sigh:
I KNOW I want to lose the weight for me - to feel healthier, to be prouder of my body and to wear the clothes I love. And the logical part of me tells me that people see me differently to the way I see myself. But my belief in myself is wavering a bit, and I feel so conflicted today about what to do. I will stick to plan today but I don't think it will fix what is going on in my head. DAMN!
I was talking to him about my CD plan and saying how much weight I wanted to lose, and he said "why would you want to lose weight? You've got a gorgeous figure and you are beautiful". Well, obviously my heart skipped a beat and my usual cool and composed attitude melted a little. It took me a good amount of self restraint not to fall into the usual trap of going home with him, and when I got home alone, I ate . Not loads, but enough to make me VERY annoyed with myself for emotional eating. I have kept myself awake for much of the night, thinking about what he said to me and beating myself up for falling off plan. :sigh:
I KNOW I want to lose the weight for me - to feel healthier, to be prouder of my body and to wear the clothes I love. And the logical part of me tells me that people see me differently to the way I see myself. But my belief in myself is wavering a bit, and I feel so conflicted today about what to do. I will stick to plan today but I don't think it will fix what is going on in my head. DAMN!