ProPoints My journey to being healthy

[Lostris]

Hi everyone.

My name is ''Lostris'' and I am Dutch. I added the nationality because I noticed, reading through your mealplans/days etc, my days look different. We dutch love our bread. Anyway, I digress. I am 25 years old and live with my lovely boyfriend (32) and our silly cat.

I did the Cambridge diet plan (VLC diet) a few years ago and lost a significant amount of weight. I was at a healthy weight but struggled to learn how to eat properly. I often ate when I was bored and when I was struggling emotionally. I put all my weight back on and some more.

I started this diary because food and eating has an emotional aspect for me which makes it hard for me to talk to my boyfriend or friends about it. I get very emotional when talking about my weight. I am very ashamed to have gained the weight back and feel like people would not understand. I hope you will accept me here and I hope that this diary will help me stay on track.

Some stats.
I started on Monday January 7th
I am 1.72m
I started at 111kg
I am currently at 108.4kg
My first subgoal is to get below 100kg.

I try to bike on my hometrainer everyday, some days 40 mins but other days I try to spend as much time as possible on my hometrainer. I watch TV series while on the bike so it isn't really a chore.

I haven't ever written a diary so bear with me.

I look forward to chatting with you.

 

[Lostris]

So today was a good day. I ate quite sensibly. Instead of eating the mountains french fries beckoning me at my parents, I had potato balls made in the oven with no added fat. I did have a bit of mayo/ketchup and burger. Other than that I had tomatoes, onion and lettuce. I am allowed to have 39pp a day which seems like a lot. I try to eat some of the extra week points every day but do not eat my activity points. I am thinking of changing it to be the other way around but not sure. I do try to work out as much as I can.
I spent 85 mins on my hometrainer today, watching TV series with my boyfriend. I actually did 150mins yesterday on it. God knows how my bum got through that but ouch. I can have some Lays Oven Baked crisps while watching telly tonight. Do you guys have those in the UK/Other countries? They are quite lovely and do not have as much fat as regular crisps.

I am very happy with my boyfriend. He has never told me I was fat or ugly and every day he tells me (when seeing a filmstar on the TV) ''but she is not as pretty as my gf''. I want to be at a normal weight not just for myself and my health but for him aswell. He has been so great we have been together 3,5 years and in those 3 years I have gained 40kg (after losing 35 with Cambridge). That's crazy right... So upset with myself for gaining so much weight back.

 

[Lostris]

Today was a good day again, I stayed within my points and had a walk in the snow. Gosh, it was cooooldd!!!
I had a light breakfast with toast with jam and ''vruchtenhagel'', which is probably a typical Dutch product. I doubt anyone here knows it. It is kind of like chocolate sprinkles we Dutch eat but it's fruity and said to be the healthier version for people trying to eat more healthily.

< Vruchtenhagel.

I was quite late getting out of bed so I had some ''breakfast cake'' (what wikipedia calls it.) Also Dutch :') with some light butter as lunch. I had some crisps as snack and a panini and big salad for dinner. I also had a lemon cheesecake yoghurt desert which was quite good.

I always have a though time when visiting my parents. They have so much food/snack and I am always overwhelmed by it. :/ I did not get to work out on my hometrainer but I hope to do 85min tomorrow to make up for that. I really want to get into that rhythm and work out regularly.

My youngest sister has been in pain for weeks. Lately, she has been in pain so much that even with the maximum dose of painkillers it is so bad she can't go to school. She doesn't want to talk about it but I am her big sister. I wish I could help her.... She is seeing a lot of specialists, psychologist, pediatrician, physical therapist... *sigh*. Makes me so sad.

 

[Lostris]

So I had my weigh in today. I am doing Weight Watchers Online so it was on my own scale. I lost another 1.1kg putting the total at 3.5kg in 2 weeks. Not bad I'd say.