Nikie
Silver Member
Well, here we are again.
On the 6 September 2012 I started the CWP and by 26 November had lost just over 3 stone. I was feeling fabulous for my 30 birthday....then came Christmas, trips to Wales, Prague and Finland and by January I had gained a few pounds......I didn't ever properly go back on CWP just a few days here and then and as a result I gained a couple of stone back.
In April I began a new job, which I love, but with it came a new routine and I always stuggle with change. It was so easy to go out for lunch with the girls rather than have a shake...as a result my weigh has increased (and bank balance decreased!) but then came the biggest change of all.
My fiance and best friend of 10 years ended our relationship and engagement just over two months ago.
It has been hard. And food and booze have been my crutch. I have not stopped eating and have drank at least a bottle of wine EVERY NIGHT since this happened. My skin is crap, I am puffy, my stomach and body is disgusting and basically I need to wake up. I'm hardly going to get him back like this right?! I have been to the doctors and they have said that the amount I drink isn't a problem in the circumstances....its whether or not I can stop. And I don't know if I can. Booze is a massive part of why we broke up as well.
I have become good friends with my CWC and we are going to restart this together. I don't know my starting weight but am going over there in an hour to have my first weigh in. Will update stats then.
I am looking forward to getting my confidence back. I feel so ugly and worthless. I have pics on here from when I did it last time and I got some many great comments, I really need to feel like that again.
I appreciate that the above is all a bit, well, serious! But as I add to this diary you will see that I am (was?) a fun, bubbly person who have just been dealt a rubbish hand of late. I need support to get through these next few months and look forward to sharing my journey with you all.
Niki xxxx
On the 6 September 2012 I started the CWP and by 26 November had lost just over 3 stone. I was feeling fabulous for my 30 birthday....then came Christmas, trips to Wales, Prague and Finland and by January I had gained a few pounds......I didn't ever properly go back on CWP just a few days here and then and as a result I gained a couple of stone back.
In April I began a new job, which I love, but with it came a new routine and I always stuggle with change. It was so easy to go out for lunch with the girls rather than have a shake...as a result my weigh has increased (and bank balance decreased!) but then came the biggest change of all.
My fiance and best friend of 10 years ended our relationship and engagement just over two months ago.
It has been hard. And food and booze have been my crutch. I have not stopped eating and have drank at least a bottle of wine EVERY NIGHT since this happened. My skin is crap, I am puffy, my stomach and body is disgusting and basically I need to wake up. I'm hardly going to get him back like this right?! I have been to the doctors and they have said that the amount I drink isn't a problem in the circumstances....its whether or not I can stop. And I don't know if I can. Booze is a massive part of why we broke up as well.
I have become good friends with my CWC and we are going to restart this together. I don't know my starting weight but am going over there in an hour to have my first weigh in. Will update stats then.
I am looking forward to getting my confidence back. I feel so ugly and worthless. I have pics on here from when I did it last time and I got some many great comments, I really need to feel like that again.
I appreciate that the above is all a bit, well, serious! But as I add to this diary you will see that I am (was?) a fun, bubbly person who have just been dealt a rubbish hand of late. I need support to get through these next few months and look forward to sharing my journey with you all.
Niki xxxx