Niki's journey from scruffy to sophisticated!!

[starry*eyed<3]

Haha - I'm the same I keep watching food network and uk food haha - I've gone even further too - I keep baking haha !!


It's like self torture - but. Haven't eaten anything I've baked - everyone around me is going to be the size if a house if I keep feeding them up haha xx

 

[Nikie]

Ooh thats a great plan starry! Make everyone else massive so we don't have to diet anymore! We'll look tiny compared to them!

 

[Jelliebabe]

Sneaky plan Star! You'll look teeny next to everyone else! I like your thinking!

I am addicted to Australia masterchef too! Love it - try to catch a few moments when Mr B is out of the house but he's switched to a working earlier shifts! GAWD no time to catch up with my TV! British bake off, come dine with me, barefoot contessa (although havent seen her on for a while). OMG have you seen Man V. Food? Love that prog! LOL

 

[tizzy51]

Here I thought I was a secret food porn junkie! Love those shows! But I don't think I could do any actual baking without having some - what willpower Star!

Nikie, congrats on your 5lb loss! And it sounds like you are going to have a fabulous birthday week!!!!

 

[starry*eyed<3]

Haha - what are we like, it's as if we are touring ourselves !!

Omg jellie - man v food is fab !! I haven't seen it for a while, I'm gong to try and catch it later It makes me really really hungry that show thou - probably more than the others xx

 

[Nikie]

I am still here!! Still on track! (When people go awol it can be because they have cheated etc!!)

I was feeling hungry yesterday night and I'm due on today so feeling a bit negative all round. Just want the weight to hurry up and go! Feeling the TOTM bloat and went on the scales (I know, I know) and I don't seem to have lost anything since last weigh in. Also, due to OH going away we are having weigh in a day early so I'm feeling peed off that I don't have a full week. I'm just feeling very unreasonable all round, which is clearly due to TOTM!!!

I'm sure I'll be back on form tomorrow! Sorry for the negative post!

 

[starry*eyed<3]

Aw you sound like me last week, just coming it of totm now, feeling much better but. Was the same as you I felt all down and sad, and my weight has barely budged since last Monday... It must be a totm thing eh .....

Grit your teeth and power through - it'll all be worth it in the end xx

 

[Nikie]

I still haven't come on, so feel like I'm in limbo!! Definitely more bloated than usual, although my bad mood seems to have improved ever so slightly!

I have weigh in tomorrow night and am really not expecting too much at the moment. I shan't be discouraged if that is the case as I KNOW next week will be worth it!

This weekend I tried on the dress that I want to wear for the black tie event on 17th November. I wore it to the same awards dinner a couple of years ago, but I'm sure no one will remember! I don't want to buy another expensive dress for it as my birthday party is the weekend after and I want to buy a dress for that instead. The good news is that the grey dress already fits again (wouldn't have if I hadn't lost 26lbs!) albeit a little snug on the boobs. So if -sorry WHEN- I lose another stone within the next month I'm hoping it'll look really good and OH and I can have our picture taken together!

Big girl and I have decided to try and lose 1 1/2 stone within the next 6 weeks. That would take me to 10.5 and would be the lightest I'd have been for YEARS. Just in time for my party and birthday celebrations.

I'm feeling quite positive today; onwards and downwards!!

 

[Jelliebabe]

Well done on getting into the dress! It will look Fabulous in no time at all!

 

[tizzy51]

Your plan sounds very do-able and you sound very motivated - I love it!
Do we get to see pix of you in your dress - and well done for getting into it! I am personally amazed at how much pleasure I get from being able to fit into things and have them look good. For years I've said I hated shopping for clothes ... and I did! But now I find it can be fun. Hmmm...that could be dangerous and expensive!

Good luck with your weighi-in tomorrow!

 

[franbella21]

Hii hun as promised here i am been lurking alot and not posting lol.well i have to say your doin amazingly and smashing this diet!!! Im doing ok just getting my head down and cracking on with it xx

 

[Nikie]

Ah well done Fran! Great to hear! I haven't seen any posts from Kate or Ali for a while -I know they were working on some of their own stuff, I hope they come back on at some point. OH and I have agreed to have one SS+ day in a couple of weeks time for his dads bday. It's something to look forward to and will hopefully make the next couple of weeks go faster! I worked out that I am day 40 today and my birthday party is day 80....so I'm actually halfway to my planned break!

 

[franbella21]

Katie had to stop for medical reasons but im sure shel be bak soon as for ali ive got no idea where shes gone me n katie are in constant contact by fone lol.your doin so so well ure so dedicated hun u should be v proud of yourself xxx

 

[Nikie]

Thanks Fran....I just commented on another diary actually about sticking to plan and motivation. For me it was like a lightbulb going on in my head. The minute that happened I was just determined to do something about my weight. I just realised that I was so sick of making excuses for not doing things, for feeling ugly, for allowing myself to be stuck in a job where I am unhappy because I feel like I'm incapable of doing anything else. I realised I'd spent about 5 years being unhappy with myself and always making excuses for why I hadn't done anything about it.

I want to look beautiful on my wedding day. I want my OH to be proud to call me his wife. I want to enjoy my life.

With all those thoughts in my head it is actually pretty easy to follow this plan for a few months. I'm just looking at the bigger picture. OH and I want to learn sailing together, we want to hire a campervan and drive around America! My weight doesn't dictate whether I enjoy my life and do these things, but my head does. I did a skydive for charity in 2010. Great accomplishment. Shame all I can remember is being picked out of the line to go on the scales in front of 25 people to check if I was ok to jump due to my weight. If I had been 2lbs heavier I wouldn't have been able to jump.

I think its easy to lose sight of what we are trying to accomplish here; some people take the diet day by day and some people are looking towards the long term benefits-whether that be in 6 weeks or 6 months!

 

[SaladDays]

Hello, thought I'd swing by! What you describe above about a light bulb going on in your head is exactly the same as what happened in my brain this time round. I described it as someone flicking a switch but I think the feeling sure sounds the same. It's like all of a sudden I realised I'd just allowed everything to get a little bit dissatisfying - life, job, weight - the whole shebang.

Anyway, I've enjoyed reading through your diary so far, you really are doing brilliantly. Best of luck with the countdown to the big 3-0.

 

[tizzy51]

Hi Nikie,
I read your posts and the advice given on the other diary. As that person said, ultimately only you can decide what to do for your birthday.
My plan was to lose for my trip to the US and that would be it. However, CD works so well that I decided to have a 2nd phase and lose more weight. I spent 3 weeks in the US and gained 6.5lbs which, considering the food, the drink, the parties...isn't too bad. Others have gone off CD and managed to gain 10+lbs per week (I really don't know how they did that, because trust me, I enjoyed myself!).
Getting back on is hard cause you know what it's like and you've just had a taste of what you're giving up. But it is do-able. And the people on this forum are here to draw on for support.
You (and your OH) are doing great and, I'm sure, will lose tons more weight before your big birthday. Whatever decision you make then is the right decision for you.
My personal input - I wouldn't want to remember my big party for how beautifully I fit into my frock but couldn't enjoy the party food and drink delights. We've all been to parties where everyone else is having a good time and is well-lubricated and we're not...

Meanwhile, I'm one bar and one soup in, with one (probably) soup to go. I'm cold!!!!!!! Time for a cup of tea!

 

[Nikie]

Hi Tizzy - yeah, everyone makes such good points. I am going to mull everything over and decide nearer the time!

Welcome SaladDays! I do tend to ramble but hopefully you'll get something out of it!

I had my 6th weigh in last night (a day early and TOTM) and lost 3lbs so I am happy with that. That means that I have lost 2st1lb in 6 weeks. My OH is at 83kg now, which is insane as he started at 98kg! He looks a lot thinner. He has a GAP jacket that has probably only ever really fit once before. Its normally a little on the tight side and not fit at all in the last year so it's been in the wardrobe for the last 7 months. He is going away for a few days and was packing yesterday and found the jacket. We'd both forgotten about it. It now completely swamps him! To the extent that I don't think he can actually wear it anymore! I found a pic of him wearing it in Cornwall in January last year and I think it really helped for him to visually see how different he looks. He hasn't been taking before/after pics so I think he's a bit in denial as to how different he looks. As he is going away until Friday he has decided to do SS+ for the next few days, with the intention of perhaps doing that going forward. He wants to start going to the gym so he needs to start upping the calorie intake. He's only 3kg from his goal so it's probably a good time for him to do SS+.

I'm about halfway to goal now!

Right, going to have a catch up on everyone else's diaries! Have a great day everyone!

 

[Jelliebabe]

Incredible! Both of you! I did that with a dress - I've never worn it, bought the list time I did Cambridge but have slimmed right past it! I was a bit gutted as its lovely.... never mind - ebay here I come!

 

[Makxxy]

Thanks Fran....I just commented on another diary actually about sticking to plan and motivation. For me it was like a lightbulb going on in my head. The minute that happened I was just determined to do something about my weight. I just realised that I was so sick of making excuses for not doing things, for feeling ugly, for allowing myself to be stuck in a job where I am unhappy because I feel like I'm incapable of doing anything else. I realised I'd spent about 5 years being unhappy with myself and always making excuses for why I hadn't done anything about it.

I want to look beautiful on my wedding day. I want my OH to be proud to call me his wife. I want to enjoy my life.

With all those thoughts in my head it is actually pretty easy to follow this plan for a few months. I'm just looking at the bigger picture. OH and I want to learn sailing together, we want to hire a campervan and drive around America! My weight doesn't dictate whether I enjoy my life and do these things, but my head does. I did a skydive for charity in 2010. Great accomplishment. Shame all I can remember is being picked out of the line to go on the scales in front of 25 people to check if I was ok to jump due to my weight. If I had been 2lbs heavier I wouldn't have been able to jump.

I think its easy to lose sight of what we are trying to accomplish here; some people take the diet day by day and some people are looking towards the long term benefits-whether that be in 6 weeks or 6 months!

This. is. amazing!
it's EXACTLY what motivated me this time around...I suddenly thought to myself: who exactly could make my goals except me? Answer: N-O-O-N-E.

So I got off my butt & got back into the swing of things.
Tired of feeling anything but the "best me" ...
Your diary's awesome...I love reading your successes...I celebrate them & share them

Well done!

 

[Nikie]

Aww Makxxy thanks so much for reading! I read this forum for a week before I started the CWP and there were so many stories on here which inspired me and I am so thrilled that now my story could inspire others to do this! If someone is reading this thinking 'Sounds too good to be true.....should I do it?' I would say YES! I don't regret it at all! I have two stone still to lose but my mental attitude and physical appearance has already changed so much!

Before I started this journey, I really felt like my life was on hold......I used to always think/say that I would do stuff when I was thinner but in hindsight I've just been wishing my life away by doing that. I also moaned about my weight A LOT! People used to say 'as long as your happy' and I used to respond 'thats the point! I'm NOT!'.

I felt so self conscious going out, and everytime New Years rolled round and friends would start discussing going out I would pipe up with the 'Why go out when we could drink at home and save money/we'll never get a taxi at the end of the night/we'll be queuing all night for drinks' when in reality I was thinking 'I don't have anything to wear/I'd feel fat and ugly'.

Prime example-I went out for drinks after work before I started this plan - probably about 3 months ago now and I was meeting some girl friends. Firstly, I get to the bar first. So I'm feeling a bit self conscious but anyway, I chose a table. Then I realise that my mobile phone is missing and it dawns on me that I've left it on the self service checkout in Sainsburys! I rush out just as they are coming through the door and hurridly explain the issue and run back to Sainburys -luckily someone had handed it in! Rush back to the pub- Firstly, I'm red faced and sweaty, out of breath and generally a mess. I'm wearing my primark pumps that could probably do with being thrown in the bin and a size 16 dress that is at bursting point! The three friends I was meeting are all thinner (size 8-10) and gorgeous, dressed in power suits and heels. We all know each other from law school and basically they all work for the biggest law firm in my town and one of them is an associate there. I work for a consultant for a teeny firm that no one has ever heard of and he has been using me increasingly for PA duties, to the point where I book his cat into the vet and even book restaurants for his dates!!!! My point is, although they love me for who I am and I'm sure if I told them all this they would be completely shocked that I felt that way, I felt so inferior to them in all aspects. I am actually meeting one of them for coffee (black!) tomorrow for the first time since then.

Two stone down and I am back in the smarter dresses and just by virtue that my face is thinner, my make up and hair look better and I am applying for other jobs! Instead and sitting back and feeling poo -I'm doing something about it!

I just wish I'd had this lightbulb moment years ago, but I guess my head just wasn't ready back then!