Littleslimmingbee
Gold Member
Argh. i so can't believe i'm saying this.
I feel liek i can't do it. i'm at target, but im struggling. All i want to do is binge. Iv resorted to tiny amounts of chocolate to tide me over, and massive amounts of free foods, lots of carbs to fill me, but still i feel lost.
All i want is a binge, a massive, huge.. eating so much sweet stuff untill i feel sick binge. I know it wont make me feel better, but it must feel better than feeling like i can't?
Im feeling really over whelmed and dissapointed in myself, aswell as everything i have going on at home.. i feel like life was easier when food was my comfort, you don't have to explain to food your problems before you eat it, it just lets you eat it and be happy.
im thinking i shoudl proberly take up some counciling that i was offered via my hairdressing tutor today, to keep me sane.. but right now.. i feel like foods my answer.
eurgh. iv worked so hard to get here and i can deal with putting on a few pounds, but my problem is i just don't seem to have any motivation to stay on track. Deep down i must as im resisting for the moment, but i feel a bit powerless agaisnt the urge!
as usual, not really too sure what the point of this post is, but maybe you all ahve some words to share.
preferably.. go for it, itl make you feel better ???????
I feel liek i can't do it. i'm at target, but im struggling. All i want to do is binge. Iv resorted to tiny amounts of chocolate to tide me over, and massive amounts of free foods, lots of carbs to fill me, but still i feel lost.
All i want is a binge, a massive, huge.. eating so much sweet stuff untill i feel sick binge. I know it wont make me feel better, but it must feel better than feeling like i can't?
Im feeling really over whelmed and dissapointed in myself, aswell as everything i have going on at home.. i feel like life was easier when food was my comfort, you don't have to explain to food your problems before you eat it, it just lets you eat it and be happy.
im thinking i shoudl proberly take up some counciling that i was offered via my hairdressing tutor today, to keep me sane.. but right now.. i feel like foods my answer.
eurgh. iv worked so hard to get here and i can deal with putting on a few pounds, but my problem is i just don't seem to have any motivation to stay on track. Deep down i must as im resisting for the moment, but i feel a bit powerless agaisnt the urge!
as usual, not really too sure what the point of this post is, but maybe you all ahve some words to share.
preferably.. go for it, itl make you feel better ???????