Hey miniminers I guess some of you will remember me, I disappeared some time ago after my husband sadly died in an accident in April. I often think of all your kind words and I am suprised (nicely) to see the 'thoughts for mags' sticky thread still there.
Anyway, onto business...... Hannah (my daugher) and I are doing really well considering, its been a difficult time as you can imagine but we're still here and still sane (sort of). We manage to have happy times despite what has happened, thankfully Hannah is so young she is relatively unaffected. I didn't manage to keep my weight under control though... story of my life, and its sneaked up and now I'm just plain old fashioned fat again! I'm still about a stone and a half lighter than where I started but if I don't do something I'm headed right back there and there is a place I don't want to be. I am a comfort eater.
Not that I need to make excuses.... I know here I am among people who understand, but I'd just like to explain a little of the unexpected things recent months have brought my way. After my husbands death which is bad enough to deal with, his family went behind my back and caused all sorts of hard circumstances to deal with. I've risen above that now, but it all added to the stress. Insurance companies are awful....it was 5 months before I knew we could afford to stay in our house and be stable. Thankfully now we are secure and reasonably comfortable, I still need to work to afford to stay in our house but maybe thats a good thing, keeps me busy.
I did go back to Lighterlife for a little while but I don't think I was really ready, and then my closest friend who has been such a rock for me since April... suddenly I though my world could end all over again... she wasn't eating, she was maybe having half a banana all day and the weight fell off her, she was compulsively exercising too. I couldn't deal with having a friend with an eating disorder and go to lighterlife so i walked away. Thankfully my friend has had help and is much better now but in the meantime my weight has floated up to 11.1 stone and I'm only 5 ft tall.
I got rid of all my big clothes so I am now in the position again of having a lovely wardrobe of clothes and only a few pieces I can still fit into. I am so fed up with it but I can't face going back to classes and babysitting is difficult too. I have bought packs of the internet (yes I know a few months back I would have advised others against it) I plan to start tomorrow, but to be honest I have already had many failed starts in the last few weeks. This is why I have come back on here to try again with minimins support.
So anyway this is me back and fighting and looking forward to hopefully being supportive as well as being supported!
Those who remember me, post any catch up news here!
looking forward to starting a new journey
love
Mags
xxxx
Anyway, onto business...... Hannah (my daugher) and I are doing really well considering, its been a difficult time as you can imagine but we're still here and still sane (sort of). We manage to have happy times despite what has happened, thankfully Hannah is so young she is relatively unaffected. I didn't manage to keep my weight under control though... story of my life, and its sneaked up and now I'm just plain old fashioned fat again! I'm still about a stone and a half lighter than where I started but if I don't do something I'm headed right back there and there is a place I don't want to be. I am a comfort eater.
Not that I need to make excuses.... I know here I am among people who understand, but I'd just like to explain a little of the unexpected things recent months have brought my way. After my husbands death which is bad enough to deal with, his family went behind my back and caused all sorts of hard circumstances to deal with. I've risen above that now, but it all added to the stress. Insurance companies are awful....it was 5 months before I knew we could afford to stay in our house and be stable. Thankfully now we are secure and reasonably comfortable, I still need to work to afford to stay in our house but maybe thats a good thing, keeps me busy.
I did go back to Lighterlife for a little while but I don't think I was really ready, and then my closest friend who has been such a rock for me since April... suddenly I though my world could end all over again... she wasn't eating, she was maybe having half a banana all day and the weight fell off her, she was compulsively exercising too. I couldn't deal with having a friend with an eating disorder and go to lighterlife so i walked away. Thankfully my friend has had help and is much better now but in the meantime my weight has floated up to 11.1 stone and I'm only 5 ft tall.
I got rid of all my big clothes so I am now in the position again of having a lovely wardrobe of clothes and only a few pieces I can still fit into. I am so fed up with it but I can't face going back to classes and babysitting is difficult too. I have bought packs of the internet (yes I know a few months back I would have advised others against it) I plan to start tomorrow, but to be honest I have already had many failed starts in the last few weeks. This is why I have come back on here to try again with minimins support.
So anyway this is me back and fighting and looking forward to hopefully being supportive as well as being supported!
Those who remember me, post any catch up news here!
looking forward to starting a new journey
love
Mags
xxxx
