IWILLSUCCEED!
Banned
Hiya all,
I was feeling so positive about being on day 4 and not cheating. I'm even in ketosis but..........
I got my other half to take some "before" photos of me a while ago in bra and pants and I am soooooooooooooooo fat. It really brings it home to me just how horrible I look even though OH says I don't look fat to him!
I knew the numbers - 14.6 stone and 62 lbs to lose, clinically obese etc etc but when you see it large scale reality really hits.
On the one hand it's making me think how much I'm gonna stick to this but on the other hand I can't believe that I'm ever gonna look any different.
I actually got him to take them so that I could post the pics but haven't got the nerve to do it now.
It's like - if you don't look down, you can pretend you aren't fat but when you see it there on screen, objectively, it's staring me back in the face and I HATE it. Hate the way I look, Hate what I've done to myself through sheer gluttony.
Sorry for the outburst but it was a real shock seeing myself in all my glory!
I know that some of you must have felt similar things but, right now, I feel the ugliest and fattest bird on this planet!
Tansyx:cry:
I was feeling so positive about being on day 4 and not cheating. I'm even in ketosis but..........
I got my other half to take some "before" photos of me a while ago in bra and pants and I am soooooooooooooooo fat. It really brings it home to me just how horrible I look even though OH says I don't look fat to him!
I knew the numbers - 14.6 stone and 62 lbs to lose, clinically obese etc etc but when you see it large scale reality really hits.
On the one hand it's making me think how much I'm gonna stick to this but on the other hand I can't believe that I'm ever gonna look any different.
I actually got him to take them so that I could post the pics but haven't got the nerve to do it now.
It's like - if you don't look down, you can pretend you aren't fat but when you see it there on screen, objectively, it's staring me back in the face and I HATE it. Hate the way I look, Hate what I've done to myself through sheer gluttony.
Sorry for the outburst but it was a real shock seeing myself in all my glory!
I know that some of you must have felt similar things but, right now, I feel the ugliest and fattest bird on this planet!
Tansyx:cry: