Hi,
Have spent the last hour reading all your messages etc. Great for motivation but hoping i can find some within myself. So i am sat here with my 2nd shake of the day and a bottle of water, with the loo in the next room behind me.
I Normally work as a sales rep but have just been made redundant, so whilst i search for a new job i thought it would be a good time to start sole source as needing to wee every 15 mins doesnt help when you are on the motorway all day !
Have tried cambridge before and gave up i just couldn't get throught the evenings without eating ( sad but true) but this time i am determined.
Husband died 10 years ago in September & have suffered from depression since then and to be honest i now feel that i have wasted the last 10 years. I have put 8 stone on since then and i now feel so unhealthy. Summer is almost here, nothing fits and i feel like an elephant. So no-one can do this other than me so here i go.............. I have also come to realise just how low my confidence is although people around me don't see it - i know its true.
Mowed the lawn last night and thought i was going to pass out, thought about going for a swim but too embarrassed. Where does all this negative stuff end i thought ?
Hubby was love of my life diagnosed with Motor Neurone Disease 8 months after we got married but the truth is if he is watching he would be giving me a kick up the you know where !!!
Life is for living and i intend to meet the anniversary in September head on - so i intend being happier, healthier and lighter for ME Oh how positive i sound ! but can i do it ? to be honest i think, i know, i have to do it.
I suffer from gout and i know that the mega amounts of water are going to make it worse but discussed it with councillor before and if i am sensible with the tablets i should get through it.
So here we go...............good luck to anyone else starting and everyone else already on their way.
Where can i get the countdown ticker thing from ?
Have a great weekend everyone at least if the weather is bad we will not have to put up with the smell of the barbecue's !
luv
Tanya
Have spent the last hour reading all your messages etc. Great for motivation but hoping i can find some within myself. So i am sat here with my 2nd shake of the day and a bottle of water, with the loo in the next room behind me.
I Normally work as a sales rep but have just been made redundant, so whilst i search for a new job i thought it would be a good time to start sole source as needing to wee every 15 mins doesnt help when you are on the motorway all day !
Have tried cambridge before and gave up i just couldn't get throught the evenings without eating ( sad but true) but this time i am determined.
Husband died 10 years ago in September & have suffered from depression since then and to be honest i now feel that i have wasted the last 10 years. I have put 8 stone on since then and i now feel so unhealthy. Summer is almost here, nothing fits and i feel like an elephant. So no-one can do this other than me so here i go.............. I have also come to realise just how low my confidence is although people around me don't see it - i know its true.
Mowed the lawn last night and thought i was going to pass out, thought about going for a swim but too embarrassed. Where does all this negative stuff end i thought ?
Hubby was love of my life diagnosed with Motor Neurone Disease 8 months after we got married but the truth is if he is watching he would be giving me a kick up the you know where !!!
Life is for living and i intend to meet the anniversary in September head on - so i intend being happier, healthier and lighter for ME Oh how positive i sound ! but can i do it ? to be honest i think, i know, i have to do it.
I suffer from gout and i know that the mega amounts of water are going to make it worse but discussed it with councillor before and if i am sensible with the tablets i should get through it.
So here we go...............good luck to anyone else starting and everyone else already on their way.
Where can i get the countdown ticker thing from ?
Have a great weekend everyone at least if the weather is bad we will not have to put up with the smell of the barbecue's !
luv
Tanya