fat_poppy
Full Member
I don't even know where to start right now i feel so lost!
It's 5months since I started 100% on my diet! I gave it everything I have and put in my all! But somewhere between my mother visiting from Cyprus, getting Engaged and becoming ill I went off the rails and have just gave up!!
I have about 10stone to lose so I need to get myself into gear and take control. Why can't I control what I put in my mouth, I really don't understand it! So in the up coming year I have my wedding (July) and after the wedding I want children. I don't wanna walk down the aisle this size its heartbreaking to think i'm going to be fat on my wedding pictures! Having a dream wedding would encourage any normal girl to take control and make sure they start losing weight! Why am I not normal? The thought of my wedding only makes me wanna eat more!! Not to mention we want kids right away after getting married and that's not going to be possible at this weight. The two biggest reasons to keep me on track, motivated and determined.... But I just feel so lost with it all! I have no faith in myself what so ever!
Today I get on the scales and I've put on nearly a stone in the last 5 months! I could cry! So here I am again pleading and begging you all for your wonderful support! I'm going to have a celebrity slim shake for breakfast each day, and a shake for lunch with a balanced meal of an evening. So I'm probably gonna be on here A LOT looking for support!
I met an amazing girl on here last time PinkDaisy and we have been close friends for 6 months now! She's my little rock! We did start a thread together last time but I'm starting a new one this time as I just can't bare to go bk on that threat it really upsets me that I let myself come off track!
So here's to day one!
It's 5months since I started 100% on my diet! I gave it everything I have and put in my all! But somewhere between my mother visiting from Cyprus, getting Engaged and becoming ill I went off the rails and have just gave up!!
I have about 10stone to lose so I need to get myself into gear and take control. Why can't I control what I put in my mouth, I really don't understand it! So in the up coming year I have my wedding (July) and after the wedding I want children. I don't wanna walk down the aisle this size its heartbreaking to think i'm going to be fat on my wedding pictures! Having a dream wedding would encourage any normal girl to take control and make sure they start losing weight! Why am I not normal? The thought of my wedding only makes me wanna eat more!! Not to mention we want kids right away after getting married and that's not going to be possible at this weight. The two biggest reasons to keep me on track, motivated and determined.... But I just feel so lost with it all! I have no faith in myself what so ever!
Today I get on the scales and I've put on nearly a stone in the last 5 months! I could cry! So here I am again pleading and begging you all for your wonderful support! I'm going to have a celebrity slim shake for breakfast each day, and a shake for lunch with a balanced meal of an evening. So I'm probably gonna be on here A LOT looking for support!
I met an amazing girl on here last time PinkDaisy and we have been close friends for 6 months now! She's my little rock! We did start a thread together last time but I'm starting a new one this time as I just can't bare to go bk on that threat it really upsets me that I let myself come off track!
So here's to day one!