I posted this elsewhere and then thought that it might help me to keep a diary on here....afterall my phone's surgically attached ;-) I joined WW away back in 2005 after trying for 5 years to have a baby. I was 15 stone. I lost 2 stone in 2 months and then fell pregnant with my first son. I was delighted and the weight piled on. I ignored the weight for awhile and then in 2008 joined SW for the first time. I again lost 2 stone and got to 13-8 and fell pregnant with my 2nd son. From then on and off I've tried SW and it never worked. I rejoined 2 weeks before Christmas at a whopping 16-12 my heaviest ever. I lost 7lb in my first week which was brill! Then due to Christmas I had a STS then a 2lb gain and I'm expecting another gain tomorrow night :-( I have to make this year different. I hate myself and my body. My eldest is getting bullied and they use me to hurt him callling me a fatty. Im sick of people asking when im due. On the otherhand while this makes me desperately unhappy the flipside of the coin is I have a husband who loves me regardless of my size and 2 fantastic boys whom I love so so much. But I need to make a drastic change so that im here for all of them. I mean I'm starting to feel those 7 stones I need to lose. Im tired all the time and starting to ache. Ive an underactive thyroid and pernicious anaemia but they cant always be the blame. Its me...I am the only accountable one.