I just thought i'd use this opportunity for a rant 
I'm on day 5, and can honestly say that right now i'm absolutly starving!
I only had 2 shakes today as one was ruined when i spilled the pepper into it in work and I had to throw it away People in work walked in on me pouring out my shake/ soup throughout the day, and questioned me about it, so one person thinks its a vitamin drink and the other things the hospital gave me it cos im on a fast for my various tests lol they then continued to ask wat tests and first thing that popped into to my mind was my joints :S so im fasting for a joint test :S (im such a bad liar!)
When i got home from work i was so hungry, i kept myself away at dinner time but when i came downstairs and went into the kitchen for some water my brothers dinner was sitting there staring at me.. i lifted some to eat it, it got to my mouth but i didnt eat it.. i knew i would have felt so let down by myself.
Also tonight i had one of those reassuring type moments.. i went out to a talk thing that was held in a leisure centre near me, i haven't been there since i was a kid, during the talk i went out to the bathroom which was in the swimming changing room and all my memories came rushing back! I used to go there when i was in primary/ early secondary school on class swimming lessons, and i went into the same toilet cubicle i used to get changed in, (it didnt have changing cubicles) and i realised that i used to hide out in there cos i didnt want any1 to see my body, and that was about 10years ago and i still feel the same, so im soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo glad i'm finally doing something about it!
i felt empowered lol.
anyways.. day was ok.. but these hunger pains r awful!
I'm on day 5, and can honestly say that right now i'm absolutly starving!
I only had 2 shakes today as one was ruined when i spilled the pepper into it in work and I had to throw it away
People in work walked in on me pouring out my shake/ soup throughout the day, and questioned me about it, so one person thinks its a vitamin drink and the other things the hospital gave me it cos im on a fast for my various tests lol they then continued to ask wat tests and first thing that popped into to my mind was my joints :S so im fasting for a joint test :S (im such a bad liar!) When i got home from work i was so hungry, i kept myself away at dinner time but when i came downstairs and went into the kitchen for some water my brothers dinner was sitting there staring at me.. i lifted some to eat it, it got to my mouth but i didnt eat it.. i knew i would have felt so let down by myself.
Also tonight i had one of those reassuring type moments.. i went out to a talk thing that was held in a leisure centre near me, i haven't been there since i was a kid, during the talk i went out to the bathroom which was in the swimming changing room and all my memories came rushing back! I used to go there when i was in primary/ early secondary school on class swimming lessons, and i went into the same toilet cubicle i used to get changed in, (it didnt have changing cubicles) and i realised that i used to hide out in there cos i didnt want any1 to see my body, and that was about 10years ago and i still feel the same, so im soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo glad i'm finally doing something about it!
i felt empowered lol.
anyways.. day was ok.. but these hunger pains r awful!
