It's really hard for me to write this, because I have been put on such a high pedestal by everyone around me, but I am struggling right now. I lost my way on Saturday (and found ice-cream, chocolate and crisps) and punished myself for 2 days before weigh-in with only fruit and an evening meal. After weighing-in on Tuesday and miraculously still losing 2.5lbs, I vowed to pull my head out of my ar$e and get my usual 100% focus back. Well, yesterday it all went to pot again. I'm so scared that I haven't learned anything, and that I will end up re-gaining what I have lost or not get to my goal. Everyone around me is so very proud of me and constantly telling me what an inspiration I am and right now I really need some help. Unfortunately, I don't feel like I can reach out to anyone because I don't want to disappoint them. I'm under a lot of stress right now with school holidays, having both mine and my OH's kids here, money issues, I'm in pain with ovarian cysts and endometriosis and, honestly, I feel like I am so overwhelmed by everything. It seems almost second-nature to appease any feelings with food.. and that just starts a guilt cycle that I have spent months working on. I haven't eaten anything yet today, and I desperately want to re-hone my focus right here, RIGHT NOW.. I just wanted to vent a little X