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As some of you know from the daily, I reached goal on my own scales this morning but not official until CDC scales say the same! However, it has made me reflect on the journey as I move towards maintenance. As there are so many people on Minis just starting out I thought I would share my thoughts in the hope that it may help someone else. I apologise in advance if I am being a little self indulgent !!
It all started when reality decided to pay me an unexpected visit one Sunday afternoon. I had taken some photographs including underwear shots to send off to “How to Look Good Naked” which I had done. However, in a quiet moment I spent a little longer looking at them and the result was complete emotional meltdown. I couldn’t understand how something that made me so unhappy was something I still wasn’t able to control. I started to look around on the web and came across Cambridge. Following long discussions with my husband who was concerned that it was safe I booked an appointment with my local counsellor. So on 7th August a rather self conscious, sad and somewhat defeated me sat in front of Sandy with a heart full of hope. Little did I know then that this would be the start of a journey that would change my life. I was full of both optimism and self doubt at the same but made a conscious decision to be really positive and to believe wholeheartedly it was going to work. I found Minimins and the support and inspirational stories only served to spur me on. I remember the first time I saw Icemoose’s mantra “Eyes down on the prize and don’t stop until you get there” … it really struck a cord …. don’t stop, don’t stop, don’t stop…..
The first week was a challenge but not as bad as anticipated and before long it felt just like a way of life. There were moments of temptation and cravings that suddenly sprung up from no where but as the weight came off I felt stronger and stronger within myself. I knew that I wanted the weight loss to continue more than I wanted to eat and so never felt cheating was an option. I watched with fascination as my body changed before my eyes and at times found it difficult to accept the new me looking back, who was she, what does she wear, how do I relate to her were just some of the questions that I had to work through, but, despite these questions I knew she was someone I wanted to get to know much much better. And so here we are nearly at the end of the weight loss part of my journey and I end it as I started it, crying, but this time tears of joy instead of despair. I can now look in a mirror and like what I see, do I love her yet? Well that is a strong emotion and I am working on it but what I will say is that I am damn proud of her.
For anyone starting out or on their journey there is nothing and I mean nothing that betters the feeling of achieving a long held dream, hang in there as I promise you it will be worth it. It may sound shallow and superficial but walking into a normal High Street chain store and picking up a size 10 to discover it fits rather than a size 22 in Elvi or Ann Harvey gives you a rush that no chocolate bar ever could. No it doesn’t solve all of life’s problems but somehow they all seem a little more manageable! I used to spend time reading success stories in the papers and magazines as well as seeing others around me lose weight and I would wish that were me. If you are reading this now and wishing, please please please don’t wish, make it happen, live the dream. I am no-one special, just your average fat bird that had had enough. This can be your reality too, follow the plan, stay strong and in the blink of an eye you will be your own inspiration.
I am now moving into maintenance, am I fearful, hell yes, but you know what, I was fearful when I began CD and look where I am now. I can do this if I allow myself to and I here and now give myself permission to succeed!
All my friends on Minis are an essential part of the journey and all play a part in my success, thank you, I love you all.
Georgie
xx
It all started when reality decided to pay me an unexpected visit one Sunday afternoon. I had taken some photographs including underwear shots to send off to “How to Look Good Naked” which I had done. However, in a quiet moment I spent a little longer looking at them and the result was complete emotional meltdown. I couldn’t understand how something that made me so unhappy was something I still wasn’t able to control. I started to look around on the web and came across Cambridge. Following long discussions with my husband who was concerned that it was safe I booked an appointment with my local counsellor. So on 7th August a rather self conscious, sad and somewhat defeated me sat in front of Sandy with a heart full of hope. Little did I know then that this would be the start of a journey that would change my life. I was full of both optimism and self doubt at the same but made a conscious decision to be really positive and to believe wholeheartedly it was going to work. I found Minimins and the support and inspirational stories only served to spur me on. I remember the first time I saw Icemoose’s mantra “Eyes down on the prize and don’t stop until you get there” … it really struck a cord …. don’t stop, don’t stop, don’t stop…..
The first week was a challenge but not as bad as anticipated and before long it felt just like a way of life. There were moments of temptation and cravings that suddenly sprung up from no where but as the weight came off I felt stronger and stronger within myself. I knew that I wanted the weight loss to continue more than I wanted to eat and so never felt cheating was an option. I watched with fascination as my body changed before my eyes and at times found it difficult to accept the new me looking back, who was she, what does she wear, how do I relate to her were just some of the questions that I had to work through, but, despite these questions I knew she was someone I wanted to get to know much much better. And so here we are nearly at the end of the weight loss part of my journey and I end it as I started it, crying, but this time tears of joy instead of despair. I can now look in a mirror and like what I see, do I love her yet? Well that is a strong emotion and I am working on it but what I will say is that I am damn proud of her.
For anyone starting out or on their journey there is nothing and I mean nothing that betters the feeling of achieving a long held dream, hang in there as I promise you it will be worth it. It may sound shallow and superficial but walking into a normal High Street chain store and picking up a size 10 to discover it fits rather than a size 22 in Elvi or Ann Harvey gives you a rush that no chocolate bar ever could. No it doesn’t solve all of life’s problems but somehow they all seem a little more manageable! I used to spend time reading success stories in the papers and magazines as well as seeing others around me lose weight and I would wish that were me. If you are reading this now and wishing, please please please don’t wish, make it happen, live the dream. I am no-one special, just your average fat bird that had had enough. This can be your reality too, follow the plan, stay strong and in the blink of an eye you will be your own inspiration.
I am now moving into maintenance, am I fearful, hell yes, but you know what, I was fearful when I began CD and look where I am now. I can do this if I allow myself to and I here and now give myself permission to succeed!
All my friends on Minis are an essential part of the journey and all play a part in my success, thank you, I love you all.
Georgie
xx
