I never thought I would need to post a thread like this, but I am struggling so much I need to talk to someone.
On Tuesday, my boyfriend of several years left me. He said that he wasn't treating me properly and that he doesn't want the responsibility of his actions affecting someone else anymore.
Things had been a little shaky for a month or so, but I really thought we would get through it, because I was always willing to go the extra mile and put in effort, it just turns out he wasn't.
I can't just turn my feelings off like he has. I've sobbed and sobbed for days. I went to SW group, and I gained 2lbs and sobbed there as well. I said that even whilst I was upset about gaining those 2lbs, I can't honestly see myself getting back on plan right now. We decided that for now I would aim for my body magic awards (which I do feel like are within my power to achieve) and think about losing weight a little bit less.
It's so upsetting, I had built my life around him for years and now that has been taken away over night. I know people say you should never make someone your everything, because when they are gone you have nothing, but I didn't listen.
I really have no desire to do anything right now. I've considered my options. I don't particularly want to die, because there are a few people who would be broken like I am now if I did, but equally, I really can't imagine the rest of my life being like this.
To make it worse, 2 of my housemates have started sleeping with each other and so I've got to deal with that as well which is making me feel even more rubbish.
Any advice or something would be nice. Thanks for reading, I know it was long.
On Tuesday, my boyfriend of several years left me. He said that he wasn't treating me properly and that he doesn't want the responsibility of his actions affecting someone else anymore.
Things had been a little shaky for a month or so, but I really thought we would get through it, because I was always willing to go the extra mile and put in effort, it just turns out he wasn't.
I can't just turn my feelings off like he has. I've sobbed and sobbed for days. I went to SW group, and I gained 2lbs and sobbed there as well. I said that even whilst I was upset about gaining those 2lbs, I can't honestly see myself getting back on plan right now. We decided that for now I would aim for my body magic awards (which I do feel like are within my power to achieve) and think about losing weight a little bit less.
It's so upsetting, I had built my life around him for years and now that has been taken away over night. I know people say you should never make someone your everything, because when they are gone you have nothing, but I didn't listen.
I really have no desire to do anything right now. I've considered my options. I don't particularly want to die, because there are a few people who would be broken like I am now if I did, but equally, I really can't imagine the rest of my life being like this.
To make it worse, 2 of my housemates have started sleeping with each other and so I've got to deal with that as well which is making me feel even more rubbish.
Any advice or something would be nice. Thanks for reading, I know it was long.