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After stopping / starting and lurking on these boards I thought it was time I joined in properly. I have had so much inspiration and motivation from here.
I was a chubby child, or so my parents would always tell me. When I look back at pictures I just look normal so I guess that has been the root to a lot of my problems.
In my teens and early twenties I was slim for the only time in my life but probably due to the fact that I was also a smoker. After getting pregnant in my early thirties (gave up the fags!) the weight has piled on. I hate the way I look. I avoid looking in the mirror - in my head I am not as big as I am and when I see myself, full length size 18, it is so depressing - I don't recognise who I have become. I am now 41 and feel like this is my last chance to start living like me again.
I hate feeling like this. I avoid going out and anything where I have to dress up because I know I will look and feel terrible. I realised that my two boys have no photos of me with them as I have been so good at avoiding the camera.
I did Cambridge Diet about 5 years ago and lost over two stone in about 5 weeks. I sabotaged over one crisp! And the rest is history.
So here I am again, after countless stops and starts where I never managed to get beyond day 5. If I had stuck to the plan in January, I would have been at goal by now. How long can you go on starting tomorrow?
So, the day that my kids broke up for summer, I started. I will not be the fat mum for my kids. Today is day 11 for me and I am feeling strong. I have made a countdown to Christmas 2013 and every day I cross another day off. It stops me breaking the diet because I can see how far I have come already. I am not hungry but I still long for food. My house has never been tidier!
I WILL do it this time. I have a mini-goal of sticking until the start of term in September. A family wedding in September (I will wear a dress and feel ok) and then holiday in the US in October. I will be in this year's Christmas photos and I will start living again.
We are all strong and capable of so much. Thanks if you have managed to get this far!
I will try to start a diary because I think it will stop me cheating! I think my main problem is boredom. I like the packs but because I am a rubbish cook, I am not managing much variety. Good luck today everyone. Today will be a good day!
After stopping / starting and lurking on these boards I thought it was time I joined in properly. I have had so much inspiration and motivation from here.
I was a chubby child, or so my parents would always tell me. When I look back at pictures I just look normal so I guess that has been the root to a lot of my problems.
In my teens and early twenties I was slim for the only time in my life but probably due to the fact that I was also a smoker. After getting pregnant in my early thirties (gave up the fags!) the weight has piled on. I hate the way I look. I avoid looking in the mirror - in my head I am not as big as I am and when I see myself, full length size 18, it is so depressing - I don't recognise who I have become. I am now 41 and feel like this is my last chance to start living like me again.
I hate feeling like this. I avoid going out and anything where I have to dress up because I know I will look and feel terrible. I realised that my two boys have no photos of me with them as I have been so good at avoiding the camera.
I did Cambridge Diet about 5 years ago and lost over two stone in about 5 weeks. I sabotaged over one crisp! And the rest is history.
So here I am again, after countless stops and starts where I never managed to get beyond day 5. If I had stuck to the plan in January, I would have been at goal by now. How long can you go on starting tomorrow?
So, the day that my kids broke up for summer, I started. I will not be the fat mum for my kids. Today is day 11 for me and I am feeling strong. I have made a countdown to Christmas 2013 and every day I cross another day off. It stops me breaking the diet because I can see how far I have come already. I am not hungry but I still long for food. My house has never been tidier!
I WILL do it this time. I have a mini-goal of sticking until the start of term in September. A family wedding in September (I will wear a dress and feel ok) and then holiday in the US in October. I will be in this year's Christmas photos and I will start living again.
We are all strong and capable of so much. Thanks if you have managed to get this far!
I will try to start a diary because I think it will stop me cheating! I think my main problem is boredom. I like the packs but because I am a rubbish cook, I am not managing much variety. Good luck today everyone. Today will be a good day!