Im So mad with myself.....
I REALLY REALLY want to get to 8st 13(I was 9st 6 at last proper WI but havent weighed in for last two weeks as I know I've put on.
I have lost my spark (hard to explain what I mean). Im not that determined 'will keep going til I get what i want' person anymore and I really miss it.
Ive been motivated up til now and at a time when Im so close to goal that I can almost touch it Ive lost the plot..why??
I do really well up til about 8pm (when I finish work) then come home and ruin it by binging...
The thing is, even when I binge, overall during the day im prob still having a lot less to eat than my pre CD days but it feels like a lot after doing the likes off SS etc.
Why do I ruin it after doing so well all day?? I feel like such an idiot...At this rate I'm going to end up where I started...Ive been like this for about 2 weeks now and I need to get it sorted and get myself back into the zone...
What do I do?? I really cant carry on like this...I really do miss CD when I mess up like this and its the only diet thats work for me.
Please help me...as I need to see the scales move again, otherwise Im going to give up which I dont want to do. :cry:
Sorry for the bringing the mood down....
I REALLY REALLY want to get to 8st 13(I was 9st 6 at last proper WI but havent weighed in for last two weeks as I know I've put on.
I have lost my spark (hard to explain what I mean). Im not that determined 'will keep going til I get what i want' person anymore and I really miss it.
Ive been motivated up til now and at a time when Im so close to goal that I can almost touch it Ive lost the plot..why??
I do really well up til about 8pm (when I finish work) then come home and ruin it by binging...
The thing is, even when I binge, overall during the day im prob still having a lot less to eat than my pre CD days but it feels like a lot after doing the likes off SS etc.
Why do I ruin it after doing so well all day?? I feel like such an idiot...At this rate I'm going to end up where I started...Ive been like this for about 2 weeks now and I need to get it sorted and get myself back into the zone...
What do I do?? I really cant carry on like this...I really do miss CD when I mess up like this and its the only diet thats work for me.
Please help me...as I need to see the scales move again, otherwise Im going to give up which I dont want to do. :cry:
Sorry for the bringing the mood down....