Cookeh
Recovering Cookie Addict
Hi Folks
You're not going to believe this, I can hardly believe it myself, but for some reason, despite doing fabulously well back on track I decided to eat last week O.O Not just a nibble of a chicken leg, I mean EAT, like *before*. I have absolutely no excuse for it other than I had an overwhelming urge to have it, like my life depended on it, and so I ate... pigged actually. Then on Friday I started back on LT, until late evening and I pigged again... then on Saturday I started on LT and.... and on Sunday I started on LT and.... -.-
WTH is wrong with me?!!! I feel so ill, so tired, and I admit that SINCE eating (not before) I feel really down. I'm trying to think what came over me, why I did it, and other than just wanting the food I really can't think what it was that made me sabotage myself.
Of course, I have paid the price dearly with 5lbs of water/glycogen/fat back on in those few days, and also all my energy has gone. My intention is to start afresh today... ah, just like Friday, Saturday and Sunday. I don't know if I will make it to the end of the day but I'm going to give it my best shot, I will NOT give up trying, and if it takes me 5 weeks like last time, then so be it, but I will be slim damn it!!! >.<
Sorry, had to get it off my chest, I'm so disappointed in myself and angry that I lost control... AGAIN -.-
You're not going to believe this, I can hardly believe it myself, but for some reason, despite doing fabulously well back on track I decided to eat last week O.O Not just a nibble of a chicken leg, I mean EAT, like *before*. I have absolutely no excuse for it other than I had an overwhelming urge to have it, like my life depended on it, and so I ate... pigged actually. Then on Friday I started back on LT, until late evening and I pigged again... then on Saturday I started on LT and.... and on Sunday I started on LT and.... -.-
WTH is wrong with me?!!! I feel so ill, so tired, and I admit that SINCE eating (not before) I feel really down. I'm trying to think what came over me, why I did it, and other than just wanting the food I really can't think what it was that made me sabotage myself.
Of course, I have paid the price dearly with 5lbs of water/glycogen/fat back on in those few days, and also all my energy has gone. My intention is to start afresh today... ah, just like Friday, Saturday and Sunday. I don't know if I will make it to the end of the day but I'm going to give it my best shot, I will NOT give up trying, and if it takes me 5 weeks like last time, then so be it, but I will be slim damn it!!! >.<
Sorry, had to get it off my chest, I'm so disappointed in myself and angry that I lost control... AGAIN -.-