emzski
Full Member
Hi Everyone
Hope all the new starts are getting on fine with the packs and drinking lots of water.
Ive been struggling the last little while. I just cant seem to regain my focus. However today has been good and I think I have identified a few problems which may explain why I'm struggling.
1. Lots of strokes lately
2. Starting a in the new developers call tmrw, im very very nervous, I dont like change!
3. This is the biggie, my ex boyfriend who I was with for over 7 years (we got gether at 14 and he was my first love and best friend for a long time, we lived together and moved away just the two of us together so he was a MASSIVE part of my life) contacted me at the weekend, I hadn't seen nor heard from for near 6 years. Its thrown me a bit and instead of focusing on LL ive been going over the past ALOT!! Its all been quite difficult.
Im also feeling full of dread as ill be starting devlopers and think ive not lost anything this week. I just want to fit in the group and im not very good with established groups. I find it hard to comeout of my shell. EEEKKKK!!
Today is like a fresh start so im going to write out my goals and focus 100% on them. Im so close now and i dont want to fall by the way side. I really want to see this thru to the end.
I just want to leave the last couple of weeks behind and move on with LL!
Hope all the new starts are getting on fine with the packs and drinking lots of water.
Ive been struggling the last little while. I just cant seem to regain my focus. However today has been good and I think I have identified a few problems which may explain why I'm struggling.
1. Lots of strokes lately
2. Starting a in the new developers call tmrw, im very very nervous, I dont like change!
3. This is the biggie, my ex boyfriend who I was with for over 7 years (we got gether at 14 and he was my first love and best friend for a long time, we lived together and moved away just the two of us together so he was a MASSIVE part of my life) contacted me at the weekend, I hadn't seen nor heard from for near 6 years. Its thrown me a bit and instead of focusing on LL ive been going over the past ALOT!! Its all been quite difficult.
Im also feeling full of dread as ill be starting devlopers and think ive not lost anything this week. I just want to fit in the group and im not very good with established groups. I find it hard to comeout of my shell. EEEKKKK!!
Today is like a fresh start so im going to write out my goals and focus 100% on them. Im so close now and i dont want to fall by the way side. I really want to see this thru to the end.
I just want to leave the last couple of weeks behind and move on with LL!