Russiandoll
Carpe diem
Hi everyone
Well, here I am after the year from hell ... frankly can't wait to see the back of 2007.
The death of two young people very close to me within 6 months of each other, my dear dad's ongoing terminal illness and an event so bad I can't divulge it to ANYONE has knocked me for six ... add to that the fact I was given a depo jab in Feb followed by a mirenal coil in September (all progesterone based), my ability to cope with it all was seriously diminished and I turned to my drug of choice ... food.
Consequently, I've regained almost everything I lost in 2006 in just 10 months and am back at the start.
It feels like that film 'Ice cold in Alex' where they spend ages winching a lorry to the top of a sand dune just to see it roll all the way to the bottom again
I feel AWFUL and don't know how I've managed to get through Uni this year. I don't want to see anyone I know, I don't want to go out, I HATE what I see in the mirror ... I'm at the end of my tether.
Anyway, I've made an appointment to see my CDC on Jan 4th - will start SSing on the 5th. I can't really afford it to be honest but my options are so, so limited.
I feel a bit of a fraud ... I was a Wemitt before and I clearly didn't 'really mean it' or I wouldn't be back here but I'm back anyway hoping to find some like-minded buddies.
Hope everyone had a great Christmas and will be having a wonderful New Year.
xx
Well, here I am after the year from hell ... frankly can't wait to see the back of 2007.
The death of two young people very close to me within 6 months of each other, my dear dad's ongoing terminal illness and an event so bad I can't divulge it to ANYONE has knocked me for six ... add to that the fact I was given a depo jab in Feb followed by a mirenal coil in September (all progesterone based), my ability to cope with it all was seriously diminished and I turned to my drug of choice ... food.
Consequently, I've regained almost everything I lost in 2006 in just 10 months and am back at the start.
It feels like that film 'Ice cold in Alex' where they spend ages winching a lorry to the top of a sand dune just to see it roll all the way to the bottom again
I feel AWFUL and don't know how I've managed to get through Uni this year. I don't want to see anyone I know, I don't want to go out, I HATE what I see in the mirror ... I'm at the end of my tether.
Anyway, I've made an appointment to see my CDC on Jan 4th - will start SSing on the 5th. I can't really afford it to be honest but my options are so, so limited.
I feel a bit of a fraud ... I was a Wemitt before and I clearly didn't 'really mean it' or I wouldn't be back here but I'm back anyway hoping to find some like-minded buddies.
Hope everyone had a great Christmas and will be having a wonderful New Year.
xx