JustineCov
Scary!
Firstly i'l tell you a little about myself. Im Jus, 36, Single mum of Regan who's 12. I work full time as Manager of an advice centre. I live with my mum Elsie whos 54 and currently have my brother living with us whos 32. The Waltons we are not
The Fat family we are! we all struggle with our weight (except my brother) and last year myself, mum and Regan had a good weight loss through weight care, but sadly we have all resorted back to old habits and all piled it back on. We realise this is due to bad eatting habits and learned behaviour... but it takes a lot of changing. I worry for Regan who has learnt all our bad stuff and is a little chunky monkey who adores every morsel he puts in his mouth (much like us). We have to change to assist him with his eatting patterns.
Today is day 3 of mine and my mums SSCD. days 1 and 2 were fine. Regan thinks were mad and can't comprehend how we must feel after not eatting at all and worried we will die.
Today i have struggled. We lost our nan yesterday evening, Mums Mum, after illness and have been on the hosipital run for over 2 months daily. Its a relief its all over for her but still sad. We have remained committed to the diet through this though and have each other for support. My nan believied that food is love. She didnt have much money but if she could give us a good dinner and some nice bits to eat and you ate it all and appreciated it its showed how much she loved u and you loved her back. This is the way our family view food. We realise now far too late that this isnt how it should be.
We went to our CDC 2 weeks ago and i had the shock of my life. I thought i had gone back to my before last years diet weight of 19 stone (i got down to 18). I had gone to 21!!! my highest weight ever. I have felt ill, lathargic, my legs hurt and my back. I cant walk very far and generally feel that if i were a dog they would put me down! I shouldnt feel like this at my age... or any age for that matter.
I have just tested my ketones and not even showing a trace as yet... i read on one of the forums that this mean you can assume the dieter is not sticking to the diet... BUT I AM! to the letter, no milk, 4 litres of water a day, nothing except the odd black coffee with tablet sweetner and my shakes and soups (3 a day). I have 10 stone to lose and want to lose it and keep it off - the weight gain is the scare i needed to do something drastic! (before i invest in a gastric band!)
My doctors useless, lectured me on how everything i stuff in my mouth is making the weight i have... tell me something i dont know! I have PCOS too and he seems to just right me off. I'l be ill - i'm at higher risk of diabetes than most cause of this and the fact my dad had maturity onset (and died last year age 56) I need help and fast! But i realise this is something only i can do.
Well thats me as it stands today/tonight... luckily i dont feel hungry at all in the mornings so i shall just go to sleep and look forward to that!
My first goal is to lose 10% of my body weight... heres hoping it happens!
I shall clock off now and come back occasionally and update whats happening!
Jus xx
The Fat family we are! we all struggle with our weight (except my brother) and last year myself, mum and Regan had a good weight loss through weight care, but sadly we have all resorted back to old habits and all piled it back on. We realise this is due to bad eatting habits and learned behaviour... but it takes a lot of changing. I worry for Regan who has learnt all our bad stuff and is a little chunky monkey who adores every morsel he puts in his mouth (much like us). We have to change to assist him with his eatting patterns.
Today is day 3 of mine and my mums SSCD. days 1 and 2 were fine. Regan thinks were mad and can't comprehend how we must feel after not eatting at all and worried we will die.
Today i have struggled. We lost our nan yesterday evening, Mums Mum, after illness and have been on the hosipital run for over 2 months daily. Its a relief its all over for her but still sad. We have remained committed to the diet through this though and have each other for support. My nan believied that food is love. She didnt have much money but if she could give us a good dinner and some nice bits to eat and you ate it all and appreciated it its showed how much she loved u and you loved her back. This is the way our family view food. We realise now far too late that this isnt how it should be.
We went to our CDC 2 weeks ago and i had the shock of my life. I thought i had gone back to my before last years diet weight of 19 stone (i got down to 18). I had gone to 21!!! my highest weight ever. I have felt ill, lathargic, my legs hurt and my back. I cant walk very far and generally feel that if i were a dog they would put me down! I shouldnt feel like this at my age... or any age for that matter.
I have just tested my ketones and not even showing a trace as yet... i read on one of the forums that this mean you can assume the dieter is not sticking to the diet... BUT I AM! to the letter, no milk, 4 litres of water a day, nothing except the odd black coffee with tablet sweetner and my shakes and soups (3 a day). I have 10 stone to lose and want to lose it and keep it off - the weight gain is the scare i needed to do something drastic! (before i invest in a gastric band!)
My doctors useless, lectured me on how everything i stuff in my mouth is making the weight i have... tell me something i dont know! I have PCOS too and he seems to just right me off. I'l be ill - i'm at higher risk of diabetes than most cause of this and the fact my dad had maturity onset (and died last year age 56) I need help and fast! But i realise this is something only i can do.
Well thats me as it stands today/tonight... luckily i dont feel hungry at all in the mornings so i shall just go to sleep and look forward to that!
My first goal is to lose 10% of my body weight... heres hoping it happens!
I shall clock off now and come back occasionally and update whats happening!
Jus xx