help!!!!
i know i loose weight when i stick to it, I feel as though i am being sobotarged on purpose my partner either does not feed the children or starts aking me whats for dinner and i can't go near food for a few days at least while i get under way. i feel its delibrate I feel he's playing with me:cry: because the 1st time he requested i did loose any more weight i still weighed 14 stone but he wanted me that big, Why!!!.:sigh: the second time he was supportive I needed surgery but once off the tfr i got scared i didn't know i was that small and i panic we didn't go out in the same circles and i felt alone and vunerable.:cry: this is the third time and i don't feel supported really I just don't feel happy because i'm not sticking to it.:cry: this is partly because I am not having my urine tested each week with the threat of being kicked off it was an excellent deterent and also made me drink enough water to make sure i didn't have too much ketones in my uring. I'm gutted because I am wasting time and money instead of buzing about my new weight. I am less weight but its not good enough. what am i affraid of I have muscle and understand that i must stay active especially on TFR muscle is easy to burn if your not using it compared to fat. i accept I am a very small person and always was I just didn't think it was small. I am a size 10 to 12 when I'm not fat. I look good when i am thinner and this time i will dress up instead of hiding. I need help!!!!,
i know i loose weight when i stick to it, I feel as though i am being sobotarged on purpose my partner either does not feed the children or starts aking me whats for dinner and i can't go near food for a few days at least while i get under way. i feel its delibrate I feel he's playing with me:cry: because the 1st time he requested i did loose any more weight i still weighed 14 stone but he wanted me that big, Why!!!.:sigh: the second time he was supportive I needed surgery but once off the tfr i got scared i didn't know i was that small and i panic we didn't go out in the same circles and i felt alone and vunerable.:cry: this is the third time and i don't feel supported really I just don't feel happy because i'm not sticking to it.:cry: this is partly because I am not having my urine tested each week with the threat of being kicked off it was an excellent deterent and also made me drink enough water to make sure i didn't have too much ketones in my uring. I'm gutted because I am wasting time and money instead of buzing about my new weight. I am less weight but its not good enough. what am i affraid of I have muscle and understand that i must stay active especially on TFR muscle is easy to burn if your not using it compared to fat. i accept I am a very small person and always was I just didn't think it was small. I am a size 10 to 12 when I'm not fat. I look good when i am thinner and this time i will dress up instead of hiding. I need help!!!!,