time to change...

[BlackRose]

Who was it said 'Insanity is doing the same thing over and over but expecting different results'? Because I think by that definition I am clearly insane.

I am not going to post saying I am filled with optimism and excitement, because quite honestly, I am not. I am not going to declare exuberantly that 'This time I WILL do it' -because I'm too afraid that yet again, I will not.

I haven't gotten over how stupid I've been breaking this time. I feel so much more depressed by my actions because I've done a lot of soul searching of late and it feels like I've deliberately sabotaged my own plans. This time is worse than others for some reason.

So I have started today. I am feeling fine about it. I 'm not worried about the social aspect or the hunger aspect. I'm not worried about anything that may be perceived as the Con's of LT. I'm just worried about me. Am I going to screw it all up again?


Tomorrow I'll probably wake up full of optimism. I know I have a lot of faith in the ppl on this forum -its not hard to seeing the great results. I just have to try every day to keep focussed on what I want -truly want -and hope that this time I actually will succeed.

The only thing I'm sure of is that I'm not giving up. Not this time.

Good night everyone -GOOD LUCK!!!


oxoxoxo

 

[fragglerock64]

well dom BR you sound positive just keep focused and be strong you know where we are if you need us

xx Sharron

 

[Cathy]

I think you have loads of insight and think about your actions a lot.
Every human makes mistakes, but the important thing is to try to learn from them and try again.
There's a saying- "The person who never made a mistake ,never made anything"
Far better to try and make our lives, health and happiness better, and have the odd slip, than just carry on in a self-destructive way.
Best of luck to you, you'll do great.xxxx

 

[BlackRose]

Thanx peeps. Still a bit down -totm approaching methinks -cant sem to lift the blues, thats why I'm only half lurking on the forum these days. I'm sure I'll get the head right soon though. A few days sticking to LT can do miracles for lifting the spirit so I'll be right as rain in no time I'm sure.

Thanks everyone. oxo

 

[Vickie_L]

I felt like i was just reading that post about myself! i am also back on day 2 and i'm feeling a bit better than yesterday. we have to stay determined to stick to it and i'm trying to use christmas as insentive. good luck hun, stay strong xxx

 

[moanz]

HI Blackrose, i totally understand where your coming from, but its brill you've managed to get back on it! So well done, you'll get there xx

 

[cuddlyfairy]

Ah Rosie, we are all human and we all make mistakes. No-one can be bouncy and cheerful 24-7 - well not without medication!!!!! I have lurking days too when I feel down and pop on to read some inspiration and get myself back into the swing of things.

You have lots of determination so I have faith in you that you will achieve your target! Good luck babe.

xxx