Time to get serious!

Bleuughh! Waking up next to a pack I digestives is never a good start, just bleugh! When will I learn I don't even enjoy eating this stuff!

That's the long answer. The short answer is no, but I might have a shake for dinner, there's nothing else I want, and my tummy hurts!

Carbs and sugar really served a purpose keeping me going the last two days but today there is no need for it. Especially if I say to myself- ok, you can have absolutely anything you want - and I ain't come up with anything, makes it even more pointless!

Will catch up on diaries in a bit, phone currently tethered to its charger - think I need a new battery, can't get more than 5 and a half hours life these days!
 
Bleuughh! Waking up next to a pack I digestives is never a good start, just bleugh! When will I learn I don't even enjoy eating this stuff!

That's the long answer. The short answer is no, but I might have a shake for dinner, there's nothing else I want, and my tummy hurts!

Carbs and sugar really served a purpose keeping me going the last two days but today there is no need for it. Especially if I say to myself- ok, you can have absolutely anything you want - and I ain't come up with anything, makes it even more pointless!

Will catch up on diaries in a bit, phone currently tethered to its charger - think I need a new battery, can't get more than 5 and a half hours life these days!

I'm afraid that's just IPhones in general lol

What on earth did you have a packet of digestives next to you for lool

Ah ul get there ria we live and we learn and u have already done so well it's just getting yourself prepared mentally for getting to goal and I think sometimes we stall ourselves from progression without even realising though fear of not being able to cope when we are out on our own so to speak

I know I do that every time I'm nearing the next stone bracket it's definitely me sabotaging myself and I knew I was doing it but I didn't know how to stop, maybe not so much since I've bn back on plan from march but definitely before that

Don't know if your the same tho ria. Just me throwing in my thoughts here lol

Xxxxx
 
I'm afraid that's just IPhones in general lol

What on earth did you have a packet of digestives next to you for lool

Ah ul get there ria we live and we learn and u have already done so well it's just getting yourself prepared mentally for getting to goal and I think sometimes we stall ourselves from progression without even realising though fear of not being able to cope when we are out on our own so to speak

I know I do that every time I'm nearing the next stone bracket it's definitely me sabotaging myself and I knew I was doing it but I didn't know how to stop, maybe not so much since I've bn back on plan from march but definitely before that

Don't know if your the same tho ria. Just me throwing in my thoughts here lol

Xxxxx

Ah see I got much better life from my 3gs which i had for 3 years without an issue, whereas this bugger, ive only had since Jan as i broke the one beofre and had to get a new one on insurance! so it's pretty shocking, theres deffo something wrong as it goes straight from 20% to 1% nothing in between and when it charges goes from 60% to 100% in the same way... might have to consider an upgrade when the 5s appears :-/

i don't know, I was just going around morrisons supermarket-sweep style last night and there they were.

Could be - the brain is mysterious right! like i said yesterday, i honestly believe i wouldn't have made it through the day if i wa son plan, but today - eating stuff i don't particularly want, just for the hell of it! I bought a pizza for my dinner last night but it wasn't particularly nice, barely ate 1/4 of it, but put it back in the fridge cos i hate wasting food, ate it for lunch re-heated- it was only vaguely better. The most ridiculous thing is that I haven't had a single proper meal today - well, apart from the pizza - that only sorta counts, I'll be completely honest - this is what i have had (in order)

about half a pack of digestives (ive now hidden them away from sight)
a sharing pack of revels - that half way through i decided i don;t like any more - but still finished (what!!??)
about 4 magdelines (those little frenchy cake things)
3/4 pizza (not a massive one, the little morrisons ones)
about half bag of minstrels (also decided i don't like these much anymore either, but this time put them away in the fridge for someone else to eat)
a dark choc digestive
spoon full of biscuit dough (making thank you biscuits for the designer i'm working with)
half a can of coke i found in the fridge

So now the ironic thing - when I'm on plan, all i feel im missing out on is things like strawberries, bananas, oats, nuts - healthy sorta stuff - yet am grabbing for the easiest and quickest thing to shove in my mouth.

disgusting.

and my tummy hurts and is all gassy and i feel all bloaty and its all my fault!!

hey ho, time to move on, hey, ,maybe i'll try one of my cambridge microwave meals for dinner!
 
Ria I am in the same place as you right now but without the previous success you had! Everything seems to be a reason to stall getting back on it and I don't even enjoy most of the rubbish I am eating. And like you it is the good stuff I miss on plan yet when I come off I use it as an opportunity to get all the bad stuff in that I can while I have the chance. How can we swing from such extremities this easily!!?!!
 
Ah see I got much better life from my 3gs which i had for 3 years without an issue, whereas this bugger, ive only had since Jan as i broke the one beofre and had to get a new one on insurance! so it's pretty shocking, theres deffo something wrong as it goes straight from 20% to 1% nothing in between and when it charges goes from 60% to 100% in the same way... might have to consider an upgrade when the 5s appears :-/

i don't know, I was just going around morrisons supermarket-sweep style last night and there they were.

Could be - the brain is mysterious right! like i said yesterday, i honestly believe i wouldn't have made it through the day if i wa son plan, but today - eating stuff i don't particularly want, just for the hell of it! I bought a pizza for my dinner last night but it wasn't particularly nice, barely ate 1/4 of it, but put it back in the fridge cos i hate wasting food, ate it for lunch re-heated- it was only vaguely better. The most ridiculous thing is that I haven't had a single proper meal today - well, apart from the pizza - that only sorta counts, I'll be completely honest - this is what i have had (in order)

about half a pack of digestives (ive now hidden them away from sight)
a sharing pack of revels - that half way through i decided i don;t like any more - but still finished (what!!??)
about 4 magdelines (those little frenchy cake things)
3/4 pizza (not a massive one, the little morrisons ones)
about half bag of minstrels (also decided i don't like these much anymore either, but this time put them away in the fridge for someone else to eat)
a dark choc digestive
spoon full of biscuit dough (making thank you biscuits for the designer i'm working with)
half a can of coke i found in the fridge

So now the ironic thing - when I'm on plan, all i feel im missing out on is things like strawberries, bananas, oats, nuts - healthy sorta stuff - yet am grabbing for the easiest and quickest thing to shove in my mouth.

disgusting.

and my tummy hurts and is all gassy and i feel all bloaty and its all my fault!!

hey ho, time to move on, hey, ,maybe i'll try one of my cambridge microwave meals for dinner!

Ah I never had a great battery with my 3GS either :(

Wow I know it's wrong but all I'm doing whilst reading your food list is think dear god that sounds delicious hahaha

Really craving food today and so badly want to eat chips and anything else that could ever accompany them lol but I won't! I need to stay focused and its 5 1/2 weeks until I go to Birmingham and I need to stay on plan to atleast the 10th of September. The thought of that though makes me want to cry because I'm so hungry (or think I am)

That's the same as me I crave nice things but the 1st thing i have is fast food. We really are odd creatures and ya feel Mingus after so what on earth are we playing at lol

Yea try the meal maybe? If you do you can let us know what u think

Hope ur yucky tummy passes soon!

Join me here in rumbley tummy land lol


Xxxx
 
Ria I am in the same place as you right now but without the previous success you had! Everything seems to be a reason to stall getting back on it and I don't even enjoy most of the rubbish I am eating. And like you it is the good stuff I miss on plan yet when I come off I use it as an opportunity to get all the bad stuff in that I can while I have the chance. How can we swing from such extremities this easily!!?!!

God knows!! And for me I know it won't stop for a while again still as 2 weeks tomorrow Rana goes back to India so I'm prob gonna be an emotional state for a while - and the day he goes well prob have food together and I'm seeing him this Thursday too, though think I should be ok to stay on plan that day. Maybe I should use it as a target- try and loose as much as possible so the last time he sees me (for a while) ill look my best and feel confident - is that possible in 2 weeks?!

Ah I never had a great battery with my 3GS either :(

Wow I know it's wrong but all I'm doing whilst reading your food list is think dear god that sounds delicious hahaha

Really craving food today and so badly want to eat chips and anything else that could ever accompany them lol but I won't! I need to stay focused and its 5 1/2 weeks until I go to Birmingham and I need to stay on plan to atleast the 10th of September. The thought of that though makes me want to cry because I'm so hungry (or think I am)

That's the same as me I crave nice things but the 1st thing i have is fast food. We really are odd creatures and ya feel Mingus after so what on earth are we playing at lol

Yea try the meal maybe? If you do you can let us know what u think

Hope ur yucky tummy passes soon!

Join me here in rumbley tummy land lol

Xxxx

Yuk yuk yuk - trust me - its not nice at all!!

I guess we always want what we can't have!

Right, had the meal, umm, well it was edible. I had the curry, i wouldn't call it a curry, it's more like chicken in gravy with a hint of spice. And it wasn't even chicken breast in it.

I'm really against any meat that can be kept at room temperature anyhow (think chilli in a can, Frey bentos pies) it doesn't seem right, but ya know, if I become I consultant it's good to know.

I won't be buying it again though, not worth the £4!

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God knows!! And for me I know it won't stop for a while again still as 2 weeks tomorrow Rana goes back to India so I'm prob gonna be an emotional state for a while - and the day he goes well prob have food together and I'm seeing him this Thursday too, though think I should be ok to stay on plan that day. Maybe I should use it as a target- try and loose as much as possible so the last time he sees me (for a while) ill look my best and feel confident - is that possible in 2 weeks?!

Yuk yuk yuk - trust me - its not nice at all!!

I guess we always want what we can't have!

Right, had the meal, umm, well it was edible. I had the curry, i wouldn't call it a curry, it's more like chicken in gravy with a hint of spice. And it wasn't even chicken breast in it.

I'm really against any meat that can be kept at room temperature anyhow (think chilli in a can, Frey bentos pies) it doesn't seem right, but ya know, if I become I consultant it's good to know.

I won't be buying it again though, not worth the £4!

Here's some pics in case you're interested....

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Oh man it doesn't look the best I must admit :/

Just do what u gotta do through the whole rana leaving situation and you know you will get sorted when your head is back in focus

Life gets in the way ria and that's just the way the cookie crumbles

2 week target sounds good but again it's a hard time for you so don't pressure urself

We are here for u on plan and off

Xxxx
 
Oh man it doesn't look the best I must admit :/

Just do what u gotta do through the whole rana leaving situation and you know you will get sorted when your head is back in focus

Life gets in the way ria and that's just the way the cookie crumbles

2 week target sounds good but again it's a hard time for you so don't pressure urself

We are here for u on plan and off

Xxxx

Thanks lovely xx
 
Wow looks blimmin foul ria!

Funny how we get into the mind set of binging. Binging for release after a stressful week. Binging because of frustration, anger whatever. That sounds like one of my epic share sized bags of sweets events.

What's going to turn it around sista ?
 
Hugs Ria xx I can't imagine how difficult this time must be for yu ATM. Have u considered going up a step therefore having more variety n not feeling deprived xx

We are all here for u regardless xx n we are still all in this together xx
 
Wow looks blimmin foul ria!

Funny how we get into the mind set of binging. Binging for release after a stressful week. Binging because of frustration, anger whatever. That sounds like one of my epic share sized bags of sweets events.

What's going to turn it around sista ?

I don't knoooow! Looking in the mirror this morning feeling rubbish about what I see, doesn't matter if I'm wearing size 10 too and size 12 jeans - really bit happy with what's staring back - this belly/muffin too gotta go!

Guess I just gotta remind myself how uncomfortable and how sick I felt on more than one occasion yesterday, had a bowl of ice cream, meringue and squinty cream, usually I'd love that but even that made me feel sick after - need to hold onto that feeling of how BAD this stuff makes me feel rather than thinking it will bring satisfaction!

Hugs Ria xx I can't imagine how difficult this time must be for yu ATM. Have u considered going up a step therefore having more variety n not feeling deprived xx

We are all here for u regardless xx n we are still all in this together xx

I thought about it but tbh step 2 works pretty well for me, I don't feel deprived or anything, it's just that little devil on my shoulder that gets me occasuonally!

Lets turn it into a positive though - I managed 5 days on step 2 - that's a record! Now I wanna do 7 and carry on from there!

Mindlessly finished a biscuit I had taken a bite of last night this morning, but not gonna let it ruin my day, just had a shake made with milk, today might be a sort of ss+/step 2 hybrid - I might swap the meal in for a 4th pack, simply cos I can't really be bothered to prepare anything, s'pose I could give another one of the Cambridge meals a go instead.

Gonna take myself off shipping today, got some returns to go back to new look then gonna go to primark!!! Following my pre-holiday weekly addiction can you believe I've not been there fr almost 2 months!! Definitely something wrong with me!!!

Then eBay, got a tonne of stuff with bids on ending tonight which I will later have the joy of parceling up! Ugh, but at least that's another £100ish in my pocket and not clogging up my wardrobe! And the good news Is I've already raised enough on eBay this year to cover my India plane ticket :) or you could say to cover the new clothes I've had to buy (even though I'm actually having to sell some of them now!) or you could say its enough to cover a few months of the diet! Either way it's good right!!

Righty, busy day ahead, see ya later

X
 
I don't knoooow! Looking in the mirror this morning feeling rubbish about what I see, doesn't matter if I'm wearing size 10 too and size 12 jeans - really bit happy with what's staring back - this belly/muffin too gotta go!

Guess I just gotta remind myself how uncomfortable and how sick I felt on more than one occasion yesterday, had a bowl of ice cream, meringue and squinty cream, usually I'd love that but even that made me feel sick after - need to hold onto that feeling of how BAD this stuff makes me feel rather than thinking it will bring satisfaction!

I thought about it but tbh step 2 works pretty well for me, I don't feel deprived or anything, it's just that little devil on my shoulder that gets me occasuonally!

Lets turn it into a positive though - I managed 5 days on step 2 - that's a record! Now I wanna do 7 and carry on from there!

Mindlessly finished a biscuit I had taken a bite of last night this morning, but not gonna let it ruin my day, just had a shake made with milk, today might be a sort of ss+/step 2 hybrid - I might swap the meal in for a 4th pack, simply cos I can't really be bothered to prepare anything, s'pose I could give another one of the Cambridge meals a go instead.

Gonna take myself off shipping today, got some returns to go back to new look then gonna go to primark!!! Following my pre-holiday weekly addiction can you believe I've not been there fr almost 2 months!! Definitely something wrong with me!!!

Then eBay, got a tonne of stuff with bids on ending tonight which I will later have the joy of parceling up! Ugh, but at least that's another £100ish in my pocket and not clogging up my wardrobe! And the good news Is I've already raised enough on eBay this year to cover my India plane ticket :) or you could say to cover the new clothes I've had to buy (even though I'm actually having to sell some of them now!) or you could say its enough to cover a few months of the diet! Either way it's good right!!

Righty, busy day ahead, see ya later

X

Sounds good let us know how you get on and what you buy in primark!!!

Exciting!!!!

Xxxx
 
I have two bags of clothes in the hall to go to the charity shop but you have given me a new lease of life for ebay! I usually get fed up trying to get to the post office around work but as its the 6 weeks hols I don't need to worry about that I guess! Today is my first day back to 100%, no doubts about it, it just has to be this way so I am stating it as fact! Like you, the things I used to eat really make me feel sick now, I wonder if that's because we have reset/detoxes our tummys after years of abuse or did we always feel this way but not recognise it?!
 
Sounds good let us know how you get on and what you buy in primark!!!

Exciting!!!!

Xxxx

Disappointing! it seems in my absence that they have started re-furbing the store, so it's currently half the size it was! booo!

I did however, even though i kinda don't need it anymore, finally get to re-buy my black blazer (yay!) got 2 nude vests since i seem to have loads of kinda see-through tops lately (is it me or are 50% of tops available like this at the moment!), a floral top for work and a scarf - not too exciting.

Then headed back into new look and bought a couple of kelly brook bras (oomph is all im saying!) and a blouse - its abit 80s - black with white hearts, long sleeve.


I have two bags of clothes in the hall to go to the charity shop but you have given me a new lease of life for ebay! I usually get fed up trying to get to the post office around work but as its the 6 weeks hols I don't need to worry about that I guess! Today is my first day back to 100%, no doubts about it, it just has to be this way so I am stating it as fact! Like you, the things I used to eat really make me feel sick now, I wonder if that's because we have reset/detoxes our tummys after years of abuse or did we always feel this way but not recognise it?!

Yay, ebay is a pain in the backside but once the pennys arrive it's all worth it!

Yaaay for 100% let's do this!!

So.... Currently tucking into a cambridge veg chilli, and it's a win! I actually really like it, it's well spiced, with a nice warmth to it! Only possible downside being it is LOADED with beans, so may cause gas! I would deffo have this again! only prob is it's a bit carby - and i guess that's why they're more of a step 3 thing - 35g of carbs in the portion :-/ I'll post pics in a minute from my phone.
 
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