Thank you Mini!
so I weighed in there this morning..10 stone 7, not good when you're only 5 ft 2 but I know it could be worse. Just feel quite angry with myself for getting so much bigger than my frame can take..I look as wide as I do tall!
The big thing I'm trying to do here though is feel healthy again. Losing weight is kind of a bi-product, the main thing is I'm sick of feeling tired all the time, picking up every bug going and being so lethargic and generally miserable. I've also been on anti-depressants since having my second little one- a result of post-natal depression, but I really get the feeling that if I ate the right things and had a clean way of living my mood would stabilise without the pills. That's just a thought anyway as I always seem to feel brighter when I'm taking care of myself and eating fuel for my body rather than crap!
Im addicted to that buzz that rubbish food gives you when you feel down, I guess I use it to self medicate..gosh I sound a bit mental writing this down. I'm not honest, I'm just trying to make sense of things in my own head!
so anyway enough psychoanalysis! Moving swiftly on, I just wrote an email there to a personal trainer asking for his help to train me (moment of madness, I'm about as fit as a sack of spuds) and he replied saying he'd give me a ring later..cue me puking up with fear in the corner. How embarrassing! Why did I do that? I feel I may be mortifying myself in front of complete strangers shortly!
Will write again tonight with my days food. I made some Paleo granola there earlier and it's SO scrummy with almond milk. Just have to have a small amount as it's full of nuts though and I know when you have weight to lose you shouldn't over do the nut consumption!
