Tomorrow I turn 40. I know I look good for my age, and at my current weight I have slimmed down immensely. However, turning 40 I feel that I am am old and I don't have much life left. I know it's ridiculous but that's how I feel. I am sad that my Mum isn't here to see me turn 40, I always thought she would be. The legal case just drags on as it does, but each day is a struggle to try to come to terms with what happened to her. Even my Dad now believes that if the hospital had done it's job right, she still would have been alive. On top of this, I am finding these last pounds very hard. I seem to have many cravings now, much more than when I started this diet. I feel depressed because I cannot eat anything, and yet, I know that if I were to give into these urges, now and after I come off LT I would be back to where I started. In short, I just feel low. I am sorry for being on a downer, but it helps to get it off my chest as I have no one here really to talk to. Men aren't like women, you can't sit down and have a good chin wag with them.