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Banned
:cry: I dont know what to do or where to go from here ... I started 1000 plan on monday as I have 14 lb to goal and have started going to the gym so need to start adding more calories .. but since monday I have lived on biscuits and cakes , and the odd slice of toast :cry: I have totally lost control and am really struggling to get it back .
I have gained 6 lb and today have managed to just have 2 shakes , but I cannot go on in this binge , starve ( SS) cycle I have to try and control this greedy glutton that I have become and other than locking myself up in a padded room I dont know how :cry::cry:
I darent tell my CDC as she will be really disappointed , i need to try and loose as muh of this gain as I can before I see her on monday so that means SSing again , which I dont want to , but I feel I have to
I am waiting for my opy of the Beck book , but I know the therory , I just cant seem to control what I do
there is no way I can EVER give up as it has taken so much effort to get to this point but CD is taking over my life in a bad way and I cant see the way out ... help :wave_cry:
I have gained 6 lb and today have managed to just have 2 shakes , but I cannot go on in this binge , starve ( SS) cycle I have to try and control this greedy glutton that I have become and other than locking myself up in a padded room I dont know how :cry::cry:
I darent tell my CDC as she will be really disappointed , i need to try and loose as muh of this gain as I can before I see her on monday so that means SSing again , which I dont want to , but I feel I have to
I am waiting for my opy of the Beck book , but I know the therory , I just cant seem to control what I do
there is no way I can EVER give up as it has taken so much effort to get to this point but CD is taking over my life in a bad way and I cant see the way out ... help :wave_cry: