shysarah
Silver Member
Hi Folks,
Been totally off plan, totally depressed and seriously not in a good place lately.
Cannot seem to get my head back in sw mode and its getting silly now.
Amazingly on saturday I had a wi and had lost 1/4lb. Don't really know how unless it was down to the few days when I didnt really eat anything and they balanced out when I ate lots.
I dunno everything seems such hard work when you are depressed even something as simple as making a salad for lunch seems like hard work, hell even getting out of bed in a morning is hard. It really is horrible I wouldn't wish this depression on anyone.
I am doing what I am told and going out a lot and spending time with people which is lovely and it takes my mind away from the horrible voices in my head for a while but they are still there when I am alone. Nights are the worst time, I have a lot of trouble sleeping and the voices go wild telling me how useless I am, how the world would be better without me in it. It scares me sometimes.
I want to try and get back onto sw.
So at least then I can have one element of my life under control even if nothing else is.
Back on plan tomorrow..!
Been totally off plan, totally depressed and seriously not in a good place lately.
Cannot seem to get my head back in sw mode and its getting silly now.
Amazingly on saturday I had a wi and had lost 1/4lb. Don't really know how unless it was down to the few days when I didnt really eat anything and they balanced out when I ate lots.
I dunno everything seems such hard work when you are depressed even something as simple as making a salad for lunch seems like hard work, hell even getting out of bed in a morning is hard. It really is horrible I wouldn't wish this depression on anyone.
I am doing what I am told and going out a lot and spending time with people which is lovely and it takes my mind away from the horrible voices in my head for a while but they are still there when I am alone. Nights are the worst time, I have a lot of trouble sleeping and the voices go wild telling me how useless I am, how the world would be better without me in it. It scares me sometimes.
I want to try and get back onto sw.
So at least then I can have one element of my life under control even if nothing else is.
Back on plan tomorrow..!
Try hard to use it to change your life, you'll never fall for a boy like this again, you'll become a better person and you'll beat this depression, it'll lift eventually and you'll be stronger.
