Thanks guys....after I wrote it down I looked at what I'd written and though *uck that looks bad.....and I'd missed the swine flu when I came back from travelling last Feb!
Anyway, everything is going to be fine I'm sure but, yes, I am majorly terrified. It's not just the op, which will be good cos it will get rid of the pain, it's the enormous amount of recovery, physio etc. Not being able to drive for a couple of months, we live in the middle of nowhere! Not being able to get in the bath, or bend, or sit in an armchair or have sex! Or cross my legs.....the list goes on and on!
Daisy, I've decided against the skiing after all, decided that the risk of dislocation is just too great and if it did happen would mean that the whole op would have to be redone and it's
apparently much, much worse, second time around. So Paul is going on a boys' trip without me at the beginning of Feb......I'll go in 2012 by which time I will be 100% fit and well.
The other thing, and this is really stupid I know, is.....I've got quite smooth thighs now, they look ok and feel good......and my left one is going to be sliced up, I'm going to have an enormous scar, the muscles' are all going to chopped up and it's never going to be smooth again. I know that this is silly and at my age it hardly matters if my thighs are in good shape, but at least they feel nice now, Paul's not going to want to touch the scarred one is he? I've got a 10 inch scar down my shin and around my ankle from my broken leg but no-one ever touches your lower legs do they? And the scar from my hysterectomy is covered by my fuzzy bits so only I know it's there.......
Sorry I don't know if any of this makes sense? I guess that I should think myself lucky that I at least my problem can be solved and at least it's not like it was my face or a breast.......just feeling sorry for myself x