Borrowedhalo
New Member
Hi everyone,
I don't know where to begin. Today is my last day of being fat. My mother, brother and sister (dad died when I was little) are all skinny. They eat whatever they want, but they never gain any weight. They also all smoke--mom is quitting right now, so I don't know what will happen with her weight. They also all drink--mom heavily, sister and brother somewhat moderately. I have never touched a cigarette and I very rarely drink alcohol. I'm telling you all of this, because I want you to understand that I believe those behaviors are keeping them thin.
I'm sure every person in denial says these words, but, I really don't eat a lot. A typical day for me is no breakfast, a sandwich, chips and diet soda for lunch and either fast food--chicken sandwich, fries, diet soda--or a home-cooked meal for dinner. If I cook, it's usually meat, side dish and veggies. It could be roast beef, instant potatoes, gravy and boiled mixed veggies; or chicken Chinese food made with WangChi Ferry boxed dinner, crab rangoon and white rice; Pork chops cooked in butter and olive oil, garlic noodles and broccoli. I love to cook; but I don't always have the budget or the time. Sometimes, I have dessert, but not every night. My family (3 teens & hubby) has a "candy dish" in the kitchen. I filled it two days ago with Reeses Pieces. It is still almost full and I haven't had even one. My hubby got me a box of 9 chocolates and flowers for Valentines. I just ate the last one yesterday.
So, the point is that I'm not an emotional eater. In fact, I'm not really depressed or down-hearted. I'm just sick of being fat...and I'm sick of some people telling me I'm not. I know they're trying to help, but I also see what I look like.
I'm 5'7" and I think I'm about 210 lbs. I got rid of my scale years ago, and I'm buying a new one tomorrow. I would like to weigh 130. Also, I don't know if it matters, but I'm about to turn the big Four-Oh. Yep, 40. I would really like to feel better and look better. So, there ya go. Sorry it's a book!
I don't know where to begin. Today is my last day of being fat. My mother, brother and sister (dad died when I was little) are all skinny. They eat whatever they want, but they never gain any weight. They also all smoke--mom is quitting right now, so I don't know what will happen with her weight. They also all drink--mom heavily, sister and brother somewhat moderately. I have never touched a cigarette and I very rarely drink alcohol. I'm telling you all of this, because I want you to understand that I believe those behaviors are keeping them thin.
I'm sure every person in denial says these words, but, I really don't eat a lot. A typical day for me is no breakfast, a sandwich, chips and diet soda for lunch and either fast food--chicken sandwich, fries, diet soda--or a home-cooked meal for dinner. If I cook, it's usually meat, side dish and veggies. It could be roast beef, instant potatoes, gravy and boiled mixed veggies; or chicken Chinese food made with WangChi Ferry boxed dinner, crab rangoon and white rice; Pork chops cooked in butter and olive oil, garlic noodles and broccoli. I love to cook; but I don't always have the budget or the time. Sometimes, I have dessert, but not every night. My family (3 teens & hubby) has a "candy dish" in the kitchen. I filled it two days ago with Reeses Pieces. It is still almost full and I haven't had even one. My hubby got me a box of 9 chocolates and flowers for Valentines. I just ate the last one yesterday.
So, the point is that I'm not an emotional eater. In fact, I'm not really depressed or down-hearted. I'm just sick of being fat...and I'm sick of some people telling me I'm not. I know they're trying to help, but I also see what I look like.
I'm 5'7" and I think I'm about 210 lbs. I got rid of my scale years ago, and I'm buying a new one tomorrow. I would like to weigh 130. Also, I don't know if it matters, but I'm about to turn the big Four-Oh. Yep, 40. I would really like to feel better and look better. So, there ya go. Sorry it's a book!