vickililly
Full Member
No need to reply to this, just think I will feel better if I can write it all down.
This morning I went to put on an office suitable summer dress and it wouldn't even nearly do up. I have had to fish out my fat clothes just so I can be comfortable. I have fat hanging over, and feel horrible, my face hardly looks like my own.
Last I started slimming world in the February, and by the summer I had lost 1.5 stone. Then I had a stomach operation which seriously restricted what I could eat for 2 months, and I dropped another stone. Not surprisingly, I put that stone back on when I started eating normally again, but from then I pretty much stayed the same or gained. I was still trying, but not sure my heart was in it.
Roll on to November and I got made redundant. I was pretty down so moved back in with my parents for company, and struggled with the biscuits and cakes in the house. The weight gradually increased. I had to move to Aberdeen from Glasgow just to get a job (although it is the job of my dreams), and only have £30 a week to feed 2 of us and a dog (partner came with me and finally living together). Again, the first few weeks we did ok, not having the money to spend on sweets and snacks, but now I have managed to gain all the weight I had lost.
This week I decided that I would start again, and yet I find myself 4 days in, 3lbs heavier and still looking terrible. I know I have not even remotely stuck to the diet, and I don't understand what is wrong with me. I suggested fish & chips at the beach, even though we had healthy food in the house. I've had sweets and chocolate, and well over my syns.
I know if I went to group I would get support, but right now, we just can't afford it. We have no money left over after paying a mortgage and rent, and my car broke down last week and wiped out our rainy day fund.
I know this is up to me, and I know I have to get myself back in the swing, but this morning I feel so terrible and depressed and hating the way I look, it just seems so far away...
If you've reached this point, thank you for reading my vent, and sorry for being so depressing on a lovely sunny day
x:wave_cry:
This morning I went to put on an office suitable summer dress and it wouldn't even nearly do up. I have had to fish out my fat clothes just so I can be comfortable. I have fat hanging over, and feel horrible, my face hardly looks like my own.
Last I started slimming world in the February, and by the summer I had lost 1.5 stone. Then I had a stomach operation which seriously restricted what I could eat for 2 months, and I dropped another stone. Not surprisingly, I put that stone back on when I started eating normally again, but from then I pretty much stayed the same or gained. I was still trying, but not sure my heart was in it.
Roll on to November and I got made redundant. I was pretty down so moved back in with my parents for company, and struggled with the biscuits and cakes in the house. The weight gradually increased. I had to move to Aberdeen from Glasgow just to get a job (although it is the job of my dreams), and only have £30 a week to feed 2 of us and a dog (partner came with me and finally living together). Again, the first few weeks we did ok, not having the money to spend on sweets and snacks, but now I have managed to gain all the weight I had lost.
This week I decided that I would start again, and yet I find myself 4 days in, 3lbs heavier and still looking terrible. I know I have not even remotely stuck to the diet, and I don't understand what is wrong with me. I suggested fish & chips at the beach, even though we had healthy food in the house. I've had sweets and chocolate, and well over my syns.
I know if I went to group I would get support, but right now, we just can't afford it. We have no money left over after paying a mortgage and rent, and my car broke down last week and wiped out our rainy day fund.
I know this is up to me, and I know I have to get myself back in the swing, but this morning I feel so terrible and depressed and hating the way I look, it just seems so far away...
If you've reached this point, thank you for reading my vent, and sorry for being so depressing on a lovely sunny day
x:wave_cry: