Thanks guys and girleys, i have really soaked up all your support:thankyou:, I was doing ok today, cold alot better etc, mentally calmer etc, until... my darling other half mentioned that he was considering a dominoes as a treat, :argh: I went absolutely balistic explaining that a freakkin tomato would be a treat for me.....:character00182ff we went to sainsburys for his tea:gigglealways get my own way) T x