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Step 1 Sole Source From elephant bum to a smaller elephants bum. Week two CD.

Hiya Everyone,

I am new to the CD and have just completed week 1. I want to keep a diary to motivate myself and remind me in the future of the hard work I've done. I hope you'll read along and comment so we can make friends and support each other :0).

The boring background
I am 30 years old, 5 feet 10, 19 stone 5, I wear a size 22 and my BMI is a terrifying 38.8. I work full time in health care and my job requires some nights and on calls. I live with my caneatwhathelikesandnevergainapound boyfriend. No kids ....yet.

I have always been "curvy" (fat) usually weighing between 14 and 16 stone depending on where I am in the binge/diet cycle. Over the last four years I have gained five stone and the result is I am now the biggest I have ever been. I am really fat/obese/"the big girl" and it sucks. I work with patients who as part of their illness often have weight problems which they need to address. I feel a massive hypocrite when I advise them and am regularly embarrassed in meetings when a patient is referred to as "HUUUGE" or "MMMAASSSIVE" and I know I weigh almost what they do.

Last year I did Weight Watchers and Slimming World and lost a few pounds before getting bored and gaining them back. I'm not sure why I loose weight so slowly always just 1lb or at best 1.5 a week and when you have a lot to loose it just feels like your getting nowhere. Actually that there is a lie, I loose weight slowly because I trick myself in to thinking I have been better than I have been and I pick at little bits so I get to the end of the week and think I've been really good when the truth is I've been really good except for the chocolate on Monday, cake on Tuesday, etc etc etc.

I have turned to the Cambridge diet because I am desperate. The lure of loosing an initial 10lbs and then 5 a week after is what hooked me. I think I could lose 1.5 stones in the first month and maybe 2 stone in 6 weeks. I go on holiday in ten weeks and would like to start trying for a baby soon after so I intend to SS for a maximum of 8 weeks but I am taking it one day at a time.

The diet

So I was lying in bed last Friday morning moping about my lardiness when I decided to feck it and just call a Cambridge Councillor. I found the friendliest looking lady on their website and text her. She responded within a few minutes and agreed to see me later the same day before she went on holiday. Nicky, the lovely CDC weighed & measured me. She gave me a book, a magazine and a shaker and I picked out products to last me twelve days till I could see her again. I decided I would start on Sunday and Nicky warned me to start reducing carbs now to make the first days easier. I of course spent the following 36 hours eating everything I knew I would be missing culminating in the carb feast that is a Chinese take away.

Day 1 - Sunday 17/01/16

Up at 5 for work and its been snowing, the fear of driving distracts me from the diet, bit of a belly ache from all that Chinese last night so I don't immediately feel all that hungry. I start the day with a slice of lemon and hot water (Nicky says one slice of lemon a day will not affect me so I have one sometimes and I reuse it!). In to work and I have a banana tetra for breakfast - not bad. It makes me thirsty and I guzzle more water.

I finish work around 2 and head off to meet friends at the pub. Luckily no one eats but I feel super sorry for myself as I can't even have the dieters staple of a diet coke. One of my lovely friends gets me a cup of hot water from the bar and I use my shaker to make up a chicken and mushroom soup which I have with a glass of water - its okay and its nice to have something hot in my tummy. I don't stay at the pub long as I feel sad thinking about all the socialising I will miss out on over the coming weeks, I wonder if it will really be worth it.

Back at home I have a key lime pie shake and gag on it - hand blender on shopping list for tomorrow - the shake is bad but the lumps make me sick.

I take the most unflattering photos I can of myself and complete my measurements and put them all on the CWP &ME app I downloaded. Feel very sorry for myself and that combined with the early start sends me to bed early with a butterscotch shake for company - its okay but doesn't taste of much except vitamins.

Water total for the day is 3L and I am up and down to the loo all night. Have a little self pity cry - this is what life has become.

Day 2 - Monday 18/01/16

Up early for work again, no headache or dizzyness. Feel thirsty so start the day with a couple of mugs of hot water and lemon. Banana tetra for breakfast when I get to work and loads and loads of water.

A colleague spots what I am doing and tells me she lost loads on CD a few years ago this perks me up until she asks me to buy her some keylime shakes next time I go as they are her favourite - I think if they are the best ones I am in big trouble.

Vegetable soup for lunch this surprises me as it is the best product I have had.

I leave work a little early as I had a busy weekend on call and when I get home I make a spag bol packet. I make it exactly to the instructions on the packet but urrrghh its too watery and I have to force it down. So far I think all the products taste like chewing a vitamin pill.

Pop out to buy a hand blender and then come home and mix up a chocolate orange shake and warm it up. It is vile. I can't force it down and at least half goes down the sink. Even the boyfriend feels sorry for me. In bed and asleep before 8.

Today's 3L of water keeps me up and down to the loo all night.

Day 3 - Tuesday 19/01/16


A slightly later start today as I am not travelling so far in to work. I blend up a mint choc chip shake with ice and take it in the car for the journey - Hoooray its delicious. It actually tastes nice. I hope I brought more than one of these.My head does feel a little foggy and I have a funny taste in my mouth, I find myself drinking more and more water which takes the taste away and improves my head. I arrive at work absolutely hopping for the loo. Flippin heck I am glad it wasn't any further. Sit through meeting needing to wee again at least it distracts me from my empty belly.

I am supposed to have the afternoon off but back to back meetings mean I don't leave work until 2pm. I head straight to Asda as the boyfriend works long hours and has been losing weight (oh the irony!) so I've promised to buy some high protein high fat snacks for him (b*st*rd). I pop in to wish a mate happy birthday on my way home and she is so pleased to see me that they crack out the birthday cake. I accept a cup of tea with a splash semi skimmed milk but resist cake. I think I dribble a bit whilst they eat but they are polite and no one mentions it!

I rush home starving and have my second packet of the day which is a chicken and mushroom soup. I manage to cook dinner for the boyfriend and even bake some bread and don't feel too bad. When he gets home I make up a chicken tikka pack and we sit down to eat together. Bluuuurgh WTF is this? Like chewing a creamy vitamin pill. Minging. Stodgy. Awful. I can't eat it. I cry. The boyfriend asks if I think its worth it. I stomp off to bed with a banana tetra and leave him scoffing the roast chicken I made.

Another 3 L of water down today and again I wee all night long.

Day 4 - Wednesday 20/01/16

So back to a 5am start and I've decided pride is over rated so I am taking my hand blender to work with me. Its a busy day and I am on the go from 7am to 7pm without much time to feel sorry for myself. Breakfast is the fruit smoothie, its okay but a little bit too sweet still it makes a nice change. Soup for lunch - vegetable soup is my surprise favorite pack.

Then I make a huge mistake. I drink my banana tetra on the way home from work and get stuck in traffic on the M1. I don't know how I don't wee myself. 5 minutes longer and I would have. Awful. Get home and run a hot hot bath as I've got cold in my bones and have done all day. I feel miserable, cold, hungry and foggy headed.

I make the macaroni cheese pack and take it in the bath with 1L of water. I'm not loving the mac n cheese as it formed a skin on top while it cooled down and looks unappetising, it also has the vitamin after taste. I chase it down with a load of water and you guessed it - another early night!

More than 3.5L of water drunk today.

Day 5 - Thursday 21/01/16


Up and out at 5 again, last day of the work week for me. My head feels clearer and I'm not all that hungry. Banana tetra for breakfast at work.

Lunch time is when the do-gooders start on me, they want me to come to the canteen for lunch so the previously known only to a select few diet comes out to the masses. Everybody knows somebody who has had gall stones/kidney stones/lost their hair/died etc etc etc as a result of a VLCD. One colleague suggests low GI and yoga and another suggests SW .They even ask if I have tried just eating healthy. I keep all my answers polite which is an achievement. Its not healthy they say - neither is a BMI of 38.5 I think. I feel very sorry for myself as they go off for lunch and I almost crack under the strain of the "you will put it all straight back on comments". Luckily its vegetable soup and water time and I feel warm and full after it.

One of my colleagues tells me she lost 30kgs on CD and kept it off. She tells me she cheated loads while doing it. Then she tells me to be careful because she ended up with an inflamed pancreas which they thought was cancer but is not and she has always thought CD caused it. Feckin 'ell lads. My head is spinning and I am considering the merits of Slimming World. I feel angry at all these opinions - I never asked for them!!!

I am home early and run another bath. I try again with the spag bol and with a little less water I almost enjoy it. Maybe my taste buds are adjusting to the vitamin after taste. I make a vanilla shake before bed - its okay but I don't enjoy it. I have another early night which I spend weeing because of the 3L of water.

Day 6 Friday 22/01/16

Hoooray for a day off and actually I feel okay. No headache. Not hungry. Hmmmm yeah I feel okay. I lie in bed and watch both episodes of this weeks Silent Witness before getting up for a banana tetra breakfast. I decide I feel a bit thinner and try on some smaller clothes. Feckin 'ell a pair of size 20 work trousers fit me if I lie down and wiggle to get the zip done up. I dance around the room for a while ignoring the fact the tight trousers make my belly spill out over the top in the most disturbing way. I decide these will be my inspiration trousers and take photos for the CWP&ME app and hang them at the front of the wardrobe.

Eventually I get dressed in some stretchy size 20 jeggins spend at least 15 minutes examining the every so slightly flatter nature of my top tummy. I try to weigh myself but given the wonky bathroom floor I realise that I can loose a stone just by moving the scales two inches to the left and I give up on getting a meaningful result.

I spend the day with my sister and we do not a lot, shes on SW and has egg and beans on toast for lunch. It doesn't bother me much at all. Back at home I make the mac n cheese for dinner and like the other pasta packet it is better the second time round.

I have a chocolate shake before bed, I have been putting this off as I don't like Slim Fast chocolate shakes so expected it to be horrid. Bloody lovely it tastes like a mars milk shake. I lick the glass clean. The boyfriend comes home and is relieved to see me a)out of bed and b)looking fairly happy. He tells me he loves me just the way I am and that if the diet is too hard I should forget it (feeder!!). I tell him I want to stick with it and I mean it. Almost 3L of water drunk today.

Day 7 Saturday 23/01/16

The Boyfriend and I are both off today and spend a lazy morning doing chores. Given its a Saturday I go mad and try the porridge - its okay - not bad at all. I only have the plain one and would like to try the flavored ones. I get through about 1.5 L of hot water with lemon and enjoy it then have a vegetable soup for lunch.

We decide to go and look at bathrooms in the afternoon and I have to get him to stop at both Sainsburys and Pizza Hut in the space of about an hour so that I can wee. I ease up off the water so we can look around the shops. My back is aching a funny dull ache and my over active imagination wonders if my kidneys are okay I imagine a scenario where I have to stop the plan for medical reasons and feel sad so as much as I am moaning I know I actually want to do this!

Later we go home and he cooks himself some fish. I sit at the table while he cooks and don't feel bothered by it at all. I try a chicken tikka pack for the second time but it is still rank and goes in the bin again. I blend up a key lime shake and I still don't like that either. I drink it by alternating a mouth full of shake with a mouth full of water.We watch a silly comedy and I feel pretty content given that if this were a normal Saturday we would be doing something food related! I only manage about 2.25L of water today. I have the bladder of a mouse and am really struggling with this constant weeing thing , I hope it improves!

And that is it the end of week one, normally I would get weighed now but I am having a longer week one as Nicky is away until Thursday. I am going to try and post every day from now on. I am looking forward to reading all your diary's and making some CD friends.

EB xxx
 
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enlightenme2

Life is golden
Will be following your diary as you had me in stitches!! You'll find that as you get on with this diet your tastebuds will appreciate stuff others (or even you) thought rank! Personally I don't do the shakes I stick to choc tetra in my coffee, veg soup, original porridge and spag Bol.. When I feel like I'm gonna crack I pull out pieces of the chewy chocolate bars which I've cut up in little pieces and put in the freezer !

Anyway good luck! You'll have lost crazy weight by the time nick comes back..
 

Elsa

Full Member
I fully related to your comments about being good(except for that piece of cake). That was so me. This diet works and I hope you are one of those people who loses 10lb in the first week and 4-5lb each week after. Some people do but not everyone. The first time I did a VLCD I had quite a hard time accepting that I wasn't one of the lucky ones but I did lose on average 2.5lb a week which was still more than I'd lost on any other diet. What I'm trying to say don't be disparaged if you don't get the super, super weight losses. Stick at it and it comes off. Good Luck
 
Yay - I have friends :) Hi Elsa and enlightenme. I so need people to talk to, I can't keep going to bed at 8!
Elsa you are totally correct, I need to adjust my expectations of myself and the diet otherwise I will be disappointed and give up - this is something I have done before on many diets when I have not achieved the weight loss I wanted in a short enough time. Please feel free to remind me of this as and when I need it lol! Enlighthenme - I love your picture - I want to make those cakes! Should I still be thinking things like that?!!!

So

Day 8 Sunday 24/01/16

The boyfriend is at work today and kindly wakes me around 4am for a chat about boilers and bathrooms before he goes :eek:. Consequently I doze on and off until about 11am. I start on the water and a butterscotch shake (its still not great). I spend most of the day on the lap top googling everything CD related I can find and inspiring myself. I have a vegetable soup for lunch which I decide to blend - bad move I will stick with mixing it from now on. I thought the blending might help the slightly grainy texture instead it just made it frothy.

The boy comes home and has fried chicken for dinner and I am desperate for some, I am not hungry I just WANT IT. NEEEEEEED it. I have less than a teaspoon full of the white meat and luckily it is totally disappointing. This is the thing - physical hunger is such a small part of my weight issue its eating when not hungry. I hope I can learn not to do that in the next few weeks. I make a macaroni which requires 1L of water to get it down. I feel positively sick afterwards and I know I won't be having one of them again - it just looks weird and tastes weird.

I am in a family of shift workers so we have to plan ahead and predictably Mothers Day comes up and we try to arrange a date to meet up. Awww man what am I going to do? Its not like I can just have a little bit and am I really going to take a shake to a restaurant? We plan for Saturday 19th March which is just about two weeks before I go on holiday so I will be eating by then to prepare and stop me gaining all I have lost while I am away. Its quite shocking to realise just how much my social life revolves around food and drink as I think about Valentines day, Easter and all those other eating excuses.

CONFESSION: I don't have my fourth pack :( I know, I know. Partly this is because I feel a bit full of liquid and can't quite face the thought of choking something else down but partly its also because I know I cant force down another chicken tikka or macaroni so I was half thinking of saving a pack so I don't have to use them before I see my consultant on Thursday. I know I am bad and it is not good for me and won't do my weight loss any good. I won't do it again (this week!)

I've drunk a poor 2.75L today and will do better tomorrow.
 
Day 9 - Monday 25/01/16

A lazy day today as its my week off. I am up around 9 and drink plenty of hot water with my reused slice of lemon. I have a shake for breakfast while watching Holly & Phil and then later I have an early lunch of chicken and mushroom soup and lots of water.

I go out to meet my mum and we shop for curtains for my bedroom, its an enjoyable few hours even though we don't do our usual coffee and cake and I don't find any curtains. Mum says my face looks thinner and thinks I must have lost at least 12lbs - I bloody hope so mummy!!!

Back home and its mushroom risotto for tea. Yuck. I have been putting this one off on purpose as I didn't think I would like it and I was right. Only positive is that it is better than the tikka pack. I don't manage more than half of it and as I do feel a little hungry I make a vanilla shake which is much more satisfying.

I text a friend who I had a preexisting lunch date with for Wednesday and ask if I can bring my own packed lunch as I am on a very strict diet, she responds that no I may not as she is taking me out for lunch. Gahhh I just don't know what to do. I had secretly been tempted to cancel to avoid this but didn't because I do really want to see her. I know people only worry because they love me. I persevere and text back and say I really want to stick to my diet and please can we do something non food related and she relents although she tells me I must be mad. I say that in 8 weeks time I will disappear when I turn sideways and then it will all have been worthwhile.

Before bed I take some photos for the CWP&ME app in the same pyjamas I wore when I started last week. My tummy is definitely a little bit flatter. Even the boyfriend agrees (when pressed haha).

I've drunk 3.5L today and I think I may actually have wee'd a little bit less often....please god I can't keep up with the bathroom trips :0)
 

enlightenme2

Life is golden
Back home and its mushroom risotto for tea. Yuck. I have been putting this one off on purpose as I didn't think I would like it and I was right. Only positive is that it is better than the tikka pack. I don't manage more than half of it and as I do feel a little hungry I make a vanilla shake which is much more satisfying.

Wow, you're scaring me! I thought that the mushroom risotto was just the WORST, and you're telling me the tikka is far worse? Did you try the rice pudding? That was also up there in "rankness" for me and I don't know about you, but my counselor sells the "food packs" at a higher price than the rest... And they're nt even that good!
I'm sticking to original porridge, veg soup and choc tetras for as long as possible

Can't wait to hear how much you've lost, I've lost 15lbs since I'm back on, however, the frustrating thing is I'm so bloated from all the drinking I can hardly button my pants by the end of the day! hope this doesn't go on for too long
 

Elsa

Full Member
We don't have the food packs in Australia (just the rice pudding which I will not be eating again) and I think that's a good thing by the sound of it. I'm happier sticking to the shakes and bars with small meal made with regular food.

Can't wait to hear your loss EB.
 
Elsa and Enlighten, as far as I can tell the food packs are all the same thing just flavoured differently - so the risotto is just the rice pudding with mushroom flavouring but yes I do believe the Tikka is worse hehehe. Luckily I see my consultant tomorrow so I won't need to eat anymore of any of them.

Day 10 Tuesday 27/01/16


HUNGRY! This is what I am today. I have no idea why put my tummy is rumbling and I feel dizzy and bleurgh. I have a vanilla shake for breakfast with hot water and lemon, then drink all morning. At 12:00 I have a vegetable soup because I Can't wait any longer. I am at home today doing life admin and its so windy and rainy outside that I don't leave the house all day. 5pm I have a porridge it is only just edible but not enjoyable. I feel a little less hungry now but still I could do with a bacon sarnie and so its the usual treatment another soup and bed at 8pm. Then my darling boyfriend gets in bedside me EATING A BLOODY SNICKERS.....he said he didn't think it smelt so I wouldn't mind. Doesn't smell? Id frickin sniffed it while he was still on the stairs. I am strong I go to sleep. He wont eat snickers in front of me again. I drank 4L's of water today.

EB x
 
Day 11 Wednesday 28/01/16

I wake up feeling a little less hungry this morning and have a banana tetra and lots of hot water and lemon for breakfast. I go out to meet my friend and we go to a lovely little park but as it is raining we soon end up in a little cafe, she has haloumi and beetroot salad on thick home made bread, I have a vegetable soup pack and a mint tea - oh yeah. It doesn't bother me much at all (but the bread does look good!). We have a good gossip and I am feeling fine. Dinner is a mint choc shake. I sit with the BF while he cooks and feel okay, not even grumpy. I can't wait for weigh day Thursday - I hope it has all been worth while!

EBx
 

Kay003

Gold Member
Hey EB :D , loving your diary ! I'm here to follow too. I'm also doing vlcd, I'm on the Slim and Save plan which is similar to CD, instead you order the packs online and go it alone at home, you don't get weighed every week by a consultant. I'm excited to see how you've done in your first week hun. Good luck, I hope you smash it out the box ! :p You deserve a huge loss just for your perseverance with those awful tasting meal packs lol (I used to do CD before, much prefer the flavours at SnS and their cheaper :) ) .

Kay xx
 

Kay003

Gold Member
EB, I've just seen you've updated your sig :D . Congrats on an amazing 12lbs loss hun, that's brilliant ! :0clapper::winner: You should be well proud of yourself !

Kay xx
 
Hi Kay & thank you, thank you. I am pretty happy I have to say. I shall come on over to the S&S forum and read your diary - I love to chat to others doing VLCD/meal replacement - it keeps me going!

Elighten, 15 lbs is brilliant. I must be lucky the water doesn't seem to bloat me much, mind you it doesn't have a chance to - it just goes straight through me.

Day 12 - Thursday 28/01/16

Hooooobloominraaaaaah its weigh day at bleedin last! I bounce out of bed but I have a bit of a belly ache, not sure what that's about as inspite of warnings that I may not I have remained "regular" :oops:. I try on those motivation trousers from last week and I recon I could actually wear them out of the house now, so long as it was with a loose fitting top and I wasn't planning on sitting down at any point. Hmmmm okay they go back in the wardrobe - maybe in a couple of weeks time.

Weigh in is at 09:30 and I loose 12lbs, 12 fabulous its all been worth it lbs. Hmmph just 2 more and it would have been a stone.......I can't help it - whatever I lost I would have wanted more! 12lbs is good, its acceptable, its more than a pound a day. I give myself a mental slap and then I am happy. I am so indecisive I can't decide what packs I want for next week in the end I settle on 7 chocolate, 7 choc mint, 7 soups (vegetable, chicken and mushroom and oriental chilli) 2 peanut bars, 1 lemon bar, and some banana and strawberry shakes. I know it means my days are going to be a bit repetitive but there aren't that many products I like. Sunday is officially day 14 so I won't have a bar until then. I am ridiculously excited for Sunday.

Anyways so as if that was not enough excitement for one day I have a delicious mint choc shake and then head off to meet my sister for some shopping and for lunch I have the oriental chilli soup which is yummy (well when I say yummy you know what I mean...it wasn't like a chicken chow mien yummy but in the scheme of Cambridge packs its tasty!!). the sister has a jacket potato and beans and I feel zero food envy.

Back home this evening its a strawberry shake which tastes pretty good, not unlike a strawberry slim fast but then I don't mind them. I stroke my peanut bars for a bit and day dream of Sunday. The boyfriend comes home and neglects to ask how much I lost so I don't tell him. I will not crack. I will not do the "so don't you want to know how much I lost?!" thing. I will wait and when he remembers he will feel bad and I will be gracious about it and suggest he can make up for it by paying for next weeks food packs;)!

I have a chocolate shake before bed - nom nom. Has anyone heated this? I want to but I am scared I don't want to ruin it - I tried a hot choc orange and it was wrong! 3L of water gone today and 4 wees in public toilets!

EB x
 
Day 13 - Friday 29/01/16

I am up early this morning, helping the boyfriend to paint the kitchen (helping with my pointing finger obviously!) and have a choc mint shake for breakfast around 10:00. I head out to meet my sister and around one we stop for lunch, I am getting very good at buying a bottle of water and asking for a cup of hot water and shaking my self a soup up in my Cambridge shaker. I am very careful but I know you shouldn't use them for hot stuff and I know it is only a matter of time before it explodes on me but for now I will continue to push my luck!

Next up I drive my mum to the airport to pick my dad up, he's been away 3 weeks and my mums really missed him. I left extra early to allow for toilet breaks and need 2 on the way there but actually make it the whole way home with out one. Win. I have a banana tetra in the car when I am nearly home with a bottle of water.

The boyfriend has been busy decorating at home which is exciting. He has his dinner and I suddenly feel very hungry but not shake hungry. I have the tinniest mouthful of white chicken meat and it is delicious. Its like a weekend treat. I consider having a bar but remain strong and leave it for Sunday. Eventually over his dinner the boyfriend remembers my weigh in and asks how it went. He is so pleased for me I cant even bring myself to make him feel bad for forgetting.

We pop out for a bit and then around 10:00 I make my final shake of the day - chocolate which I put in the microwave for 1 minute to make it a little warm. Its okay, I don't mind it warm but I probably won't do it again. By the time I go to bed its 11:30. Blimey that is the first time in 13 days I have been up since 9
 

enlightenme2

Life is golden
Hi EB, so today is the day you get to have your bar finally. Let us know which one you chose to have first! Lost another 3 lbs. Weighed in because I wanted to finish the January challenge and boy did I! I'am doing Exante now it's day 2 for me and I must say the products don't taste bad at all, it's just the fact that it's 3 packs instead of 4 which makes me feel sorry for myself but the food is much more filling and satisfying!
 
Hey enlighten, its going to be a peanut bar but I've not had it yet - so excited (not even joking!) Your weight loss is so inspiring - that's 18lbs in total? Has the bloating improved? Is exante cheaper and you don't have to see a consultant? It could be worth looking in to...

So, Day 14 Saturday 30/01/16

I am up early today to continue decorating, this time its hanging curtains so I actually do something myself. In all the business I kind of forget to have my first shake till around 11:00 and I don't have much water either. We head out to look at furniture and stuff and the BF never sees anywhere he wants to stop for lunch so we don't. On the way home he buys the must humungous piece of delicious looking cake you have ever seen and scoffs it sat next to me in the car - I am totes strong and don't even get grumpy with him.

We get home around 5 and I know I have not been very good with the water, I have a chicken and mushroom soup and start trying to catch up on H2O. Now all day the BF has been saying he is hungry and what should he eat and all day I have been saying, have this or do that or get this or cook that or whatever. Now this evening he is still banging on about it and finally requests I order him a Chinese. I was tired and sensitive. He was very insensitive. I cried. A lot. I sat at my lap top and sobbed to myself about....well I am not sure what really...because I wanted noodles and chicken wings? Partly. Mostly because he said, "just have some Chinese, it won't hurt" he just doesn't understand and no one who has never been this weight would. God I just want to shift some of this weight as quick as possible :0(.

Anyway the Chinese was eaten (by him) and a chocolate shake was drunk (that was me) more water downed. Peace & love was restored in the Elephant house hold. I then had a fairly early night because nothing cures misery and hunger like sleep... I didn't manage four packs today, only three and probably on about 2.75 L of water. Must do better...
 

enlightenme2

Life is golden
Hey enlighten, its going to be a peanut bar but I've not had it yet - so excited (not even joking!) Your weight loss is so inspiring - that's 18lbs in total? Has the bloating improved? Is exante cheaper and you don't have to see a consultant? It could be worth looking in to...

So, Day 14 Saturday 30/01/16

I am up early today to continue decorating, this time its hanging curtains so I actually do something myself. In all the business I kind of forget to have my first shake till around 11:00 and I don't have much water either. We head out to look at furniture and stuff and the BF never sees anywhere he wants to stop for lunch so we don't. On the way home he buys the must humungous piece of delicious looking cake you have ever seen and scoffs it sat next to me in the car - I am totes strong and don't even get grumpy with him.

We get home around 5 and I know I have not been very good with the water, I have a chicken and mushroom soup and start trying to catch up on H2O. Now all day the BF has been saying he is hungry and what should he eat and all day I have been saying, have this or do that or get this or cook that or whatever. Now this evening he is still banging on about it and finally requests I order him a Chinese. I was tired and sensitive. He was very insensitive. I cried. A lot. I sat at my lap top and sobbed to myself about....well I am not sure what really...because I wanted noodles and chicken wings? Partly. Mostly because he said, "just have some Chinese, it won't hurt" he just doesn't understand and no one who has never been this weight would. God I just want to shift some of this weight as quick as possible :0(.

Anyway the Chinese was eaten (by him) and a chocolate shake was drunk (that was me) more water downed. Peace & love was restored in the Elephant house hold. I then had a fairly early night because nothing cures misery and hunger like sleep... I didn't manage four packs today, only three and probably on about 2.75 L of water. Must do better...
Good grief woman.. You need to do some ninja kickass moves on your +1!!! Tell him to stop whining so damn much! Reminds me of the ONE time I tried to have my DH to do a fast with me ... I'm talking. One damn weekend... As in 48hrs!! You would have thought I pulled his damn intestines out and sold them to some devil in disguise !!! I mean people are starving EVERYWHERE in the world!! Can we not give a damn??
Sorry rant over so how was the PB bar??
 

enlightenme2

Life is golden
BTW 18lbs in total!!!
 

Kay003

Gold Member
So I was upto Day 11 and have caught up now :D, I love reading your diary hun, it always puts a smile on my face, the way you write and express yourself :) . I know your first weigh in was on Day 11 because your consultant was away or something, when's your next one ? I had mine today after 3 weeks and am happy with the result :p. I have one month left before my op to try and lose some more, so I will give it my best shot. It would be great to keep intouch on our diaries (even though I'm doing SnS), it's still vlcd. Sometimes it gets tough staying 100% all the time, so the support from each other will really help. I would love to see you on mine :) (link is in my sig). Hope your having a smashing start to the week EB ! :D

Kay xx
 
Ahhhh Enlighten and Kay, ladies with diaries....I will be along very shortly to read and say hi. Fabulous weight loss Enlighten - so impressed!

Day 15 - Sunday 31/01/16

I am up around 08;30 today and my sister tells me she is feeling really down so we arrange to do the one thing that cheers every girl up and SHOP :0).

I have a strawberry shake for breakfast in the car (I like it less each time I drink it) and start on the water. We spend a pleasent morning browsing and buying the odd pick me up. Late we go to Marks & Spencer for lunch and my sister has salmon and new potato salad. It looks amazing. I have a chicken and mushroom soupbut I feel okay about it.

After popping in to see my mum I head home and sit down with a glass of water this weeks heat to have my first bar!!! Its a monumental moment - when I started I wasn't sure I would make it to week 2 to get one! The bar is okay. I need the water to wash it down. I like the chocolate and its good to chew. Its no snickers bar.

When the BF gets home I have my choc mint shake with him while he has his dinner and then I head to bed around 9 as its back to work tomorrow. I mange nearly 3L of water today.

Day 16 - Monday 01/02/16

Up at 04:45 (its still night time) and head in to work. Around 09:00 I have a mint choc shake for breakfast and then get busy until 1 when I make spicy oriental soup (yummy) and being at my desk helps me guzzle water. My colleagues all comment on my weight loss and say they can see it in my face. I don't like talking about it except with people I really like so I hate that everyone is talking about it. I down play my loss "just a few pounds"!

I leave work at 5 and am home by 6:30 and I run a nice hot bath as deep as I can and then I get in with my lemon yogurt bar which I enjoy. Nomnomnom. When the BF gets home I have my chocolate shake with him while he has dinner. Now I have a sneaky little peak at the scales and I'VE GAINED A FECKING STONE. Errrrrr hello? the scales must be broken.... I go to bed and dream of chips and mayonnaise (really I do). More than 3.5 L of water drunk today.

Day 17 - Tuesday 02/02/16


Up at 05:00 and in to work. Make a strawberry shake for breakfast when I get there (with my hand held blender which I just take in to work - dedication). Being busy really helps and I just crack on with work only just getting time for my chicken and mushroom soup at lunch time. I don't leave work until almost 7pm and I feel light headed and groggy. I drink a banana tetra in the car. Its warm and leaves a yucky taste in my mouth but it does make me feel a bit better.

So the scales are concerning me and I decide to stop by my sisters where I just say hi and then as soon as is reasonably polite - jump on her scales annnndd....IVE STILL GAINED. Hello? WTF? I strip (the scales are in her bathroom) and weigh again and its definite. I've gained a good few pounds. It's okay. It's just water. (it's not okay - it's far from okay.)

I steam all the way home and have a shake and go to bed. I am not due my period and I have been pooping almost daily so its not that either. What is it? I drank another 3L's today.

Day 18- Wednesday 03/02/16


Up at 2am, 3am, and then finally give up and get out of bed at 4am and just head in to work. The joys of being on call. I have a chocolate shake for breakfast at work and keep myself busy through the hunger. I am sulking and hungry. Vegetable soup for lunch. And then an unannounced, unexpected and unwanted period arrives. It is not due for another 10 days and I am on the pill so it is usually like clock work.

My worries:
  1. Am I pregnant? I read that the pill doesn't work 100% while on the diet. I am going on holiday to Florida in April and with the Zika virus in the Americas I do not want to be pregnant now before I go. If I am break through bleeding this implies its not working so I do really need to think contraception (although at this rate I won't have to worry as I won't have an opportunity to fall pregnant!)
  2. More likely, am I going to be one of those unfortunates who bleeds for the entire time I am on this diet. I am not sure I can manage that. Actually I am pretty sure I can not manage that.
  3. Does this mean I really won't loose any weight this week.
Meh.

I come home from work and have a chocolate mint milk shake and run a bath that I am just about to go in. When I get out I will have my last shake of the day. Tomorrow is weigh day and its fair to say I am dreading it. Lets hope I get a little weight loss miracle.

EB x
 

Elsa

Full Member
Dreaming about food - I did that too last time I was on the diet. I had a recurring dream that I was at a banquet with tables piled high with foods. I would stuff myself silly and wake up feeling ill and guilty. It was soo weird. In relation to the bleeding a doctor once told me that fat stores a lot of oestragen and as you burn up fat it releases the hormone into your blood stream which can then mess up your cycle. So take it as a good sign that you are burning that fat!!

Fingers crossed for weigh in.
 




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