Hi , just had a quick scan read of your diary and you had me on page one x i am in a very similar situation , althougth mine has been going on since 2012 when i finally faced it. It seems such a daunting task and i yo yo between 25 and 29 st it seems i get some sort of a block at around 25

I struggle with going out and have in the not to distance past had to rely on drugs to get me out, I now have a few places i can cope with but am still prone to panic attacks for no reason. I discontinued antiD's myself about a yr ago as felt i was getting dependent on them and I felt complacent, i probably shouldn't have done that but am to scared to go to the drs and admit that. At my worst i have been suicidal

I now have places I can go, my comfort zones, but never go out alone. I am at my most comfortable at work where i put on an act but go to great lengths to avoid leaving my work area. For all that sounds bleak i do feel i am getting a handle on my self and am far more positive and up ,I have decided 2015 IS MY YEAR , I am looking forward to following your journey and hope we can support each other xx I am useing slimming world because i know it works for me but have cheated and sent my husband to the classes as i can't face them. i restarted on the 12th jan and have relost just over a stone. Its slow but my new mantra is i didn't get this way overnight it's not going to go away over night xx So good luck and well done on your lose so far x we will do this xx