porkscratching
Silver Member
I've always been overweight - for years I "carried it well" but was always a size 18 - big boobs and ass but with a small waist. Now after a couple of decades, a couple of kids and countless bad choices I am just plain fat. To make things worse, my comfort and emotional eating has started to rub off on my 5 year old and she's gone from a chunky kid to a fat one.
This really breaks my heart - I'd love to take her swimming but there is just no way I can bring myself to pay €400 for a years pool membership (at least in the UK it's free) to either give up going or suffer the humiliation of the local skinny crew seeing my fat ass and even fatter legs.
So it's time to change the outlook and my whole relationship with food. I was lurking on here last night, while guzzling vodka - woke up at 8 am - hungover and bloated, had a wholemeal roll and 2 tsp of choccy philly and went back to bed. Not a great start. But then thought hell you have to start somewhere ...
So here I begin - weight unknown - but over 16 stone ...
Desperately wanted to try the cheese scones and so decided to walk the girls to their nan's (skinned & bloody knees for both girls within a mile of home - as clumsy as their mother, bless) - so pushed them both in buggy most of the way (resistance training
). Walked into town and got low fat cottage cheese and loads of fruit then walked home with it on my back. Did not stop once on way home, although I did flag at the end. 7km round trip - I deserved those scones .
Made myself look at my fat reflection in the shop windows, I normally just avoid reflective surfaces - and it was all there - every wobbly pound and I have to make myself accountable for this. I did it and I can change it.
And oh how scrummy they were, made them with real fried onions instead of chives and had them with 3 small bacon medallions with the fat trimmed off and salad. Leftover scone mix is in the fridge for lunch tomorrow with some veg soup I think.
Still full of scones, so can't even think what to have for dinner but I really fancy a cup of tea.
Need to get my head around whether I am doing extra easy or green or red - although just being aware and responsible for the food I put into my mouth is a big start.
Got ahead with tomorrow and made a quorn bolognaise and a quorn chilli to freeze for Wed as well. Can I do a green day and have quorn?
This really breaks my heart - I'd love to take her swimming but there is just no way I can bring myself to pay €400 for a years pool membership (at least in the UK it's free) to either give up going or suffer the humiliation of the local skinny crew seeing my fat ass and even fatter legs.
So it's time to change the outlook and my whole relationship with food. I was lurking on here last night, while guzzling vodka - woke up at 8 am - hungover and bloated, had a wholemeal roll and 2 tsp of choccy philly and went back to bed. Not a great start. But then thought hell you have to start somewhere ...
So here I begin - weight unknown - but over 16 stone ...
Desperately wanted to try the cheese scones and so decided to walk the girls to their nan's (skinned & bloody knees for both girls within a mile of home - as clumsy as their mother, bless) - so pushed them both in buggy most of the way (resistance training
). Walked into town and got low fat cottage cheese and loads of fruit then walked home with it on my back. Did not stop once on way home, although I did flag at the end. 7km round trip - I deserved those scones .Made myself look at my fat reflection in the shop windows, I normally just avoid reflective surfaces - and it was all there - every wobbly pound and I have to make myself accountable for this. I did it and I can change it.
And oh how scrummy they were, made them with real fried onions instead of chives and had them with 3 small bacon medallions with the fat trimmed off and salad. Leftover scone mix is in the fridge for lunch tomorrow with some veg soup I think.
Still full of scones, so can't even think what to have for dinner but I really fancy a cup of tea.
Need to get my head around whether I am doing extra easy or green or red - although just being aware and responsible for the food I put into my mouth is a big start.
Got ahead with tomorrow and made a quorn bolognaise and a quorn chilli to freeze for Wed as well. Can I do a green day and have quorn?
