Candlewix
Down boy!
An overwhelming sense of futility suddently crept up on me Sunday.
This is the second time for me on CD, I lost 3 stones previously, gained in all back.
Over the weekend I cooked a slow roast shoulder of pork for hubby ( he requested) imagine the smell of that all day. I also did my home made potato salad, a speciality. Whilst making it I thought, if I wasn't doing CD I would dish him up a portion and then polish off the rest of the huge bowl later. Its as though I'm 'in prison' and as soon as I get back the key I am afraid I'm just going to go straight back to that ghastly pattern of feast and fast!!
So I sat down and blubbed my eyes out :cry:
How do I know I'm going to succeed this time? I hate being fat (actually obese I think its called) I'm turning into a recluse because of it!
Has anyone out there lost and maintained? I am hell bent to stick with this until I'm goal weight this time, its just the afterward that worries me :wave_cry:
This is the second time for me on CD, I lost 3 stones previously, gained in all back.
Over the weekend I cooked a slow roast shoulder of pork for hubby ( he requested) imagine the smell of that all day. I also did my home made potato salad, a speciality. Whilst making it I thought, if I wasn't doing CD I would dish him up a portion and then polish off the rest of the huge bowl later. Its as though I'm 'in prison' and as soon as I get back the key I am afraid I'm just going to go straight back to that ghastly pattern of feast and fast!!
So I sat down and blubbed my eyes out :cry:
How do I know I'm going to succeed this time? I hate being fat (actually obese I think its called) I'm turning into a recluse because of it!
Has anyone out there lost and maintained? I am hell bent to stick with this until I'm goal weight this time, its just the afterward that worries me :wave_cry: