chicken on a mission
Restarting to lose 4stone
More and more people are telling me that I can't have much more weight to lose. I notice this because it annoys me! I want to end up at between 10st and 10st 7lbs which means I still have about 3 stone to go and I get disbelief when I tell people this.
The people that show disbelief don’t have any ulterior motives for keeping me fatter which I know can be a possibility when you lose lots of weight. I think they say this because I don’t seem to have a lot to lose on the top half of my body and of course that is the bit that people notice. They can’t see the state of my legs and tummy because not only am I wearing clothes but the clothes I am wearing are chosen to make the most of what I do have and play down the bits that still need a bit of help so that I appear in proportion.
Now to the nitty gritty of this. Why on earth should being told I don’t have much more to lose annoy me so much?
It should be a compliment as I know it is coming from genuine good feelings and intentions. I have been thinking about this overnight and believe I have the answer.
I have a history of self sabotage and making do so I don’t run the risk of failing. With my weight loss I am determined not to compromise which means that perversely I have to focus on how far I have to go rather than how far I have come. If I have people telling me I don’t have far to go then not only does this put thoughts of finishing earlier than intended and moving my goal in my mind but it also reminds me that I am getting to the stage in this journey where traditionally I have always given up because it is towards the end and if I give up now I don’t ever run the risk of failing because my best wasn’t good enough.
Doing the thought records on LL is definitely useful to me because before I would have just been irritated and reacted aggressively because I would assume that the problem is with the other person. Now I know that the problem actually lies with me!
I am now free to respond in an appropriate manner to such comments rather than an inappropriate which only would have confused, upset and angered the other party. Doing LL has changed my life and the way I interact with others. I am gaining confidence everyday and improving as a person and there is no way I would ever have got as far as I have without it.
I always thought I was quite a sensitive person to others but I really wasn’t quite getting the plot because I didn’t understand how my own slant on things affected my ability to understand. I am open to that probability now which can only help in the future
The people that show disbelief don’t have any ulterior motives for keeping me fatter which I know can be a possibility when you lose lots of weight. I think they say this because I don’t seem to have a lot to lose on the top half of my body and of course that is the bit that people notice. They can’t see the state of my legs and tummy because not only am I wearing clothes but the clothes I am wearing are chosen to make the most of what I do have and play down the bits that still need a bit of help so that I appear in proportion.
Now to the nitty gritty of this. Why on earth should being told I don’t have much more to lose annoy me so much?
It should be a compliment as I know it is coming from genuine good feelings and intentions. I have been thinking about this overnight and believe I have the answer.
I have a history of self sabotage and making do so I don’t run the risk of failing. With my weight loss I am determined not to compromise which means that perversely I have to focus on how far I have to go rather than how far I have come. If I have people telling me I don’t have far to go then not only does this put thoughts of finishing earlier than intended and moving my goal in my mind but it also reminds me that I am getting to the stage in this journey where traditionally I have always given up because it is towards the end and if I give up now I don’t ever run the risk of failing because my best wasn’t good enough.
Doing the thought records on LL is definitely useful to me because before I would have just been irritated and reacted aggressively because I would assume that the problem is with the other person. Now I know that the problem actually lies with me!
I am now free to respond in an appropriate manner to such comments rather than an inappropriate which only would have confused, upset and angered the other party. Doing LL has changed my life and the way I interact with others. I am gaining confidence everyday and improving as a person and there is no way I would ever have got as far as I have without it.
I always thought I was quite a sensitive person to others but I really wasn’t quite getting the plot because I didn’t understand how my own slant on things affected my ability to understand. I am open to that probability now which can only help in the future