flabbybumbum
On a mission
Firstly, can i just say that I'm sorry i havent been around much, i have ALOT going on in my personal life, but i know that being around here does me good, so i will try and visit more often! I do lurk now and then and see how you guys are getting on, but often lack the time to post on individual threads. But, everyone is doing great...all together on the march towards a slimmer Christmas
Ok, here's where I'm at...........
Ive realised that I was letting myself fall into the comfort eating trap. Now I know that i cant change all the turmoil in my life, but i can change what i put in my mouth! Ive said this before, and i know that eating sensibly gives me a sense of routine and control over my life...and a feeling of achievemnt and hope for the future (very philosophical)
So, from today, i am back on the xenical train, healthy low fat diet and 3 little blue pills
AND.....drum roll purlleeeaassee..........I went to the gym!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Whats all the fuss about i hear you say...well it was a BIG thing for me to walk into that environment, especially when my confidence is on the floor
BUT, do you know what? I survived it and I'm feeling proud of myself! My workout was only 25 mins or so, but i was just so glad that i didnt end up a red faced dripping mess or show myself up.
They are encouraging me to do the £20 dd scheme because going through GP referral i can only make the Mon session and thats not really going to be beneficial. So I'm going to pay casual member rate for the next couple of visits and then make my decision.Its not just the money, coz 20 quid is fine, its just not knowing what my work commitments will be due to the current situation...so will i be able to make use of off peak is what im trying to get at (in a really round about kind of way!!)
So, im feeling a little more positive, and have a little feeling of self belief creeping back in....I CAN do this, I WANT to do this , and i WILL do it
Ok, here's where I'm at...........
Ive realised that I was letting myself fall into the comfort eating trap
. Now I know that i cant change all the turmoil in my life, but i can change what i put in my mouth! Ive said this before, and i know that eating sensibly gives me a sense of routine and control over my life...and a feeling of achievemnt and hope for the future (very philosophical)So, from today, i am back on the xenical train, healthy low fat diet and 3 little blue pills
AND.....drum roll purlleeeaassee..........I went to the gym!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Whats all the fuss about i hear you say...well it was a BIG thing for me to walk into that environment, especially when my confidence is on the floor
BUT, do you know what? I survived it and I'm feeling proud of myself! My workout was only 25 mins or so, but i was just so glad that i didnt end up a red faced dripping mess or show myself up.
They are encouraging me to do the £20 dd scheme because going through GP referral i can only make the Mon session and thats not really going to be beneficial. So I'm going to pay casual member rate for the next couple of visits and then make my decision.Its not just the money, coz 20 quid is fine, its just not knowing what my work commitments will be due to the current situation...so will i be able to make use of off peak is what im trying to get at (in a really round about kind of way!!)
So, im feeling a little more positive, and have a little feeling of self belief creeping back in....I CAN do this, I WANT to do this , and i WILL do it
