anna_vixen
Gold Member
Today, I broke down.
I am suffering with mild depression so excuse me if this is ridiculous.
On a Monday, Tues, Wed, Thurs - I work only in the morning. Recently I started working Fridays too but all day.
Today was such a hard day - firstly working all day is fab - but lunchtime is awful.
I went into the staffroom and there was a box of all differet bags of walkers crisps that you could just help yourself to.
I sat eating my lunch having a battle with myself - and its just ridiculous but maybe someone will understand.
It went something like this;
"have a bag - come on just count them"
"you dont need them look at your dinner and just eat what youve got"
"go on you deserve them"
"no - you shouldnt eat them its a waste of syns"
"but I do have a syn allowance to use"
"but you dont need them"
"but I want them"
"you're going out for a meal on tuesday - you should be having low syns till then"
"but one bag of crisps wont make a difference"
"you'll only feel guilty"
"you shouldnt feel guilty"
"but you will you always do"
I probably sound like a crazy person - but I'm hoping someone can relate.
What should I do in this situation?
xxx
I am suffering with mild depression so excuse me if this is ridiculous.
On a Monday, Tues, Wed, Thurs - I work only in the morning. Recently I started working Fridays too but all day.
Today was such a hard day - firstly working all day is fab - but lunchtime is awful.
I went into the staffroom and there was a box of all differet bags of walkers crisps that you could just help yourself to.
I sat eating my lunch having a battle with myself - and its just ridiculous but maybe someone will understand.
It went something like this;
"have a bag - come on just count them"
"you dont need them look at your dinner and just eat what youve got"
"go on you deserve them"
"no - you shouldnt eat them its a waste of syns"
"but I do have a syn allowance to use"
"but you dont need them"
"but I want them"
"you're going out for a meal on tuesday - you should be having low syns till then"
"but one bag of crisps wont make a difference"
"you'll only feel guilty"
"you shouldnt feel guilty"
"but you will you always do"
I probably sound like a crazy person - but I'm hoping someone can relate.
What should I do in this situation?
xxx