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So my bf has been very good over the last 13 days, he has made his own dinner so I havent had to touch, look or smell food in the house at all.. (I've just done the dishes instead)
So today, I decided I would get him a really big galaxy easter egg and this would be my ultimate test. Well, how hard is it to see a big half eaten egg in the fridge and not eat it??!!! BUT I havent done it. I MUST have the willpower to save myself from this early death that I feel I have done to myself.
This isnt just about vanity for me. To look good in clothes, I feel knackered walking up the stairs or walking to the fridge. In Evans, the clothes are even getting too small, The size 30/32 is the biggest they go and I am determined that I will not buy online for clothes.
I started this journey at 23 stone 4lbs and tonight I weighed myself and I am 22 stone exactly in just 13 days. I almost cant believe that if I continue with this diet, I will eventually be slim. I am so excited and also scared that I am going to mess up. This is why I havent cheated because for me, as soon as I cheat 'once' then that's it, I might as well give up for good.
But that Easteregg keeps calling me and I cant wait for it to be gone....
The one thing that scared me the most about getting so big, and this is quite depressing (sorry I am in a rambling mode) What if I died because I got so fat, like 35+ stone (like the people you see on sky channel) and they couldnt find a coffin big enough to fit me. How embarrassing would that be for my family. Is that morbid?? Yesss!!!! But its true and something I have thought about.
Anyway, lets hope that no-one else buys my bf any Eastereggs... :crazy:
So today, I decided I would get him a really big galaxy easter egg and this would be my ultimate test. Well, how hard is it to see a big half eaten egg in the fridge and not eat it??!!! BUT I havent done it. I MUST have the willpower to save myself from this early death that I feel I have done to myself.
This isnt just about vanity for me. To look good in clothes, I feel knackered walking up the stairs or walking to the fridge. In Evans, the clothes are even getting too small, The size 30/32 is the biggest they go and I am determined that I will not buy online for clothes.
I started this journey at 23 stone 4lbs and tonight I weighed myself and I am 22 stone exactly in just 13 days. I almost cant believe that if I continue with this diet, I will eventually be slim. I am so excited and also scared that I am going to mess up. This is why I havent cheated because for me, as soon as I cheat 'once' then that's it, I might as well give up for good.
But that Easteregg keeps calling me and I cant wait for it to be gone....
The one thing that scared me the most about getting so big, and this is quite depressing (sorry I am in a rambling mode) What if I died because I got so fat, like 35+ stone (like the people you see on sky channel) and they couldnt find a coffin big enough to fit me. How embarrassing would that be for my family. Is that morbid?? Yesss!!!! But its true and something I have thought about.
Anyway, lets hope that no-one else buys my bf any Eastereggs... :crazy: