GothicLolita
Full Member
Hi there, I thought I’d introduce myself as I’ve spent so long reading everyone’s posts I feel like I know you all. I’m starting on Exante this morning & I’m nervous & kinda excited, having read so many inspiring blogs. I’ve never done anything like this before. I’ve got endometriosis & as a result I’ve gone on a course of steroids, which did not suit me @ all & had a terrible effect on my body. I just ballooned apart from that I had a virus, which was misdiagnosed last year & that left me out of work & inactive for nine months which added to my girth.
I was always an active gym goer but after the virus & hormone treatment my level of ability just dropped. I love the gym now I gather I won’t be very active while doing the VLCD but I intend to carry on doing free weights or something. The gym is my mental health outlet where I forget work in the evening. I need it to switch off.
Now I feel guilty saying that I’m only a size 14 because I know that is not obese but it is double the size I’m used to being. I’ve lost my mojo, my confidence is completely shattered, my husband never gets any action as I hide my body go to bed late & get up extra early to hide from him.
I’m from a family of very thin (naturally) people who do not understand why I shun shopping with them. I am annoyed that I’m like this & I’m also annoyed that my self worth is so tightly wound up in the superficial aspect of my outward appearance. I hate having to smile & carry on as if I’m on top of the world, all the time hating what I’ve become.
I will not be able to post during work & I’m doing this on the sly as my husband would only tell me to move more & eat less & I’ll be fine but I’m impatient & need to see results fast. I know I’ll be able to maintain it once I shed the wobble cos I’m just desperate to get back to normal.
Sorry for whinging on.
I was always an active gym goer but after the virus & hormone treatment my level of ability just dropped. I love the gym now I gather I won’t be very active while doing the VLCD but I intend to carry on doing free weights or something. The gym is my mental health outlet where I forget work in the evening. I need it to switch off.
Now I feel guilty saying that I’m only a size 14 because I know that is not obese but it is double the size I’m used to being. I’ve lost my mojo, my confidence is completely shattered, my husband never gets any action as I hide my body go to bed late & get up extra early to hide from him.
I’m from a family of very thin (naturally) people who do not understand why I shun shopping with them. I am annoyed that I’m like this & I’m also annoyed that my self worth is so tightly wound up in the superficial aspect of my outward appearance. I hate having to smile & carry on as if I’m on top of the world, all the time hating what I’ve become.
I will not be able to post during work & I’m doing this on the sly as my husband would only tell me to move more & eat less & I’ll be fine but I’m impatient & need to see results fast. I know I’ll be able to maintain it once I shed the wobble cos I’m just desperate to get back to normal.
Sorry for whinging on.