big bear
A bear on a mission!
Ok I've had depression before I fell pregnant with my 2nd baby and was on tablets think they were called something like Citalopram can't remember exact name. I stopped them as soon as I found out I was pregnant. I was fine all along until about February this year when I went on them again but stopped them again in June.
Background about me (some of you know) I've got 2 kids one is nearly 3 the other is 10 mths old. I started back to work end of June working 3 days a week which I absolutely love. My H works nights & I never see him.
At the moment I'm feeling like this:
I'm really tired all the time but just been putting this down to working again and looking after 2 wee ones.
I feel as if I get no help from my H and that I never ever see him & when he is here my toddler plays up as he lets him get away with everything. I spend every evening sat on my own as I can't get out anywhere because H is asleep for work & the kids are in bed. I try to get out & do something with wee ones on a Thurs & Fri but sometimes I really can't be bothered & don't want to.
I really can't be bothered to do the cleaning/tidying up or housework.
I sometimes feel that I wish I didn't have the children & they just go away(but I love them dearly & this isn't like me)
I wish I could just runaway from everything & think what is the point of life??
We're got some financial problems but nothing major & they are in control now I'm working again we're slowly getting there.
I also feel that I don't want to be with my H & that I should leave as I get no love/affection etc I was out a few weeks ago & was chatted up by another man who wanted to see me & it made me feel great but I'm not silly I know an affair would just make things worse. We're always arguing & he just works/sleeps all the time but I am thankful that he has a job with the way things are but feel really lonely.
I feel as if I really can't cope & I'm falling apart & that the kids are being affected by this.
I think I'm depressed again....H doesn't want me going on the tablets again but I don't know what to do??
Do you think that this is depression? or is this just normal life for someone with little ones, H says that this is life??if it is it sucks..
I am seeing the dr tomorrow but really needed to write this down & get it of my chest.
Has anyone actually had depression & come of the tablets & been ok again? I just see no end to this. I'm normally a happy bubbly person but feel as if I have no life. H says I'm self centred & just think of myself etc etc...
I understand that I should be grateful for what I've got etc as there are people out there worse off than me, or with terminal illness & they don't moan.
What should I do??
Ok I've been to the drs, he said he wanted to check my bloods for lots of things before putting me on tablets as he said I mite be low in something making me tired, irritable etc. He has given me a prescription for anti deps but says don't get it till I get the test results. He said to call him Tues for the results & we'll take it from there. Thanks for all your support
Background about me (some of you know) I've got 2 kids one is nearly 3 the other is 10 mths old. I started back to work end of June working 3 days a week which I absolutely love. My H works nights & I never see him.
At the moment I'm feeling like this:
I'm really tired all the time but just been putting this down to working again and looking after 2 wee ones.
I feel as if I get no help from my H and that I never ever see him & when he is here my toddler plays up as he lets him get away with everything. I spend every evening sat on my own as I can't get out anywhere because H is asleep for work & the kids are in bed. I try to get out & do something with wee ones on a Thurs & Fri but sometimes I really can't be bothered & don't want to.
I really can't be bothered to do the cleaning/tidying up or housework.
I sometimes feel that I wish I didn't have the children & they just go away(but I love them dearly & this isn't like me)
I wish I could just runaway from everything & think what is the point of life??
We're got some financial problems but nothing major & they are in control now I'm working again we're slowly getting there.
I also feel that I don't want to be with my H & that I should leave as I get no love/affection etc I was out a few weeks ago & was chatted up by another man who wanted to see me & it made me feel great but I'm not silly I know an affair would just make things worse. We're always arguing & he just works/sleeps all the time but I am thankful that he has a job with the way things are but feel really lonely.
I feel as if I really can't cope & I'm falling apart & that the kids are being affected by this.
I think I'm depressed again....H doesn't want me going on the tablets again but I don't know what to do??
Do you think that this is depression? or is this just normal life for someone with little ones, H says that this is life??if it is it sucks..
I am seeing the dr tomorrow but really needed to write this down & get it of my chest.
Has anyone actually had depression & come of the tablets & been ok again? I just see no end to this. I'm normally a happy bubbly person but feel as if I have no life. H says I'm self centred & just think of myself etc etc...
I understand that I should be grateful for what I've got etc as there are people out there worse off than me, or with terminal illness & they don't moan.
What should I do??
Ok I've been to the drs, he said he wanted to check my bloods for lots of things before putting me on tablets as he said I mite be low in something making me tired, irritable etc. He has given me a prescription for anti deps but says don't get it till I get the test results. He said to call him Tues for the results & we'll take it from there. Thanks for all your support
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