peachy1982
Silver Member
Well I am not supposed to be sitting here typing a message on minimins, all week it was known that I was going out tonight with friends down the local. We were meeting at 7 so at six I trundled upstairs to get ready. I opened the wardrobe and my heart just dropped. I gate my body my clothes don't fit and as a result I am say here on my own after lying to my boyfriend saying I don't want to go out and instead sent him out on his own. I feel people look at me as fatty, look at the state of her and watching what I eat I hope to be normal one day but until then do I need to sit in on Saturday night cause I am too fat for public? I know I am not a mountain I am about a size 18 but I just feel so depressed if I know we need to go out. Family events are my worst fear, when you are people you haven't in a while. I obsess for weeks about what to where and try to remember if I was fatter or thinner the last time they seen me. I insist in squeezing myself into one of those bodyshaper things even if I am only wearing my jeans. How can I get away from this??? Please help me love myself a bit more? I want to go out and buy something new tomorrow so I know I will have something to wear next weekend but I know shopping will make me even worse. Won't find anything nice to fit will be in the changing room getting hot and stuffy and it will end up me buying nothing and coming home in tears. Where can I go from here? I am trying to lose weight but feel like I have been on a diet for the last 7 years. I need it to work this time, its been hanging over me too long. Any advice?
Thanks
Clare x
Thanks
Clare x