babymable
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Well I suppose I will start by telling everyone a bit more about myself. I am 28 years old and recently married. I moved from Niagara Falls Canada to Scotland 2 years ago to live with my now hubby. We met on the internet and fell for each other and been happy together ever since.
My weight gain came about when I left my job managing a pet store (running around with the dogs and other animals kept me in shape), and then started a job at a hotel sitting on my butt all day. Well the weight piled on and it's been a struggle ever since to get it off.
I get depressed a lot because of my weight, I won't leave the house because I don't think I look good in anything I own. I won't go to the gym because I am afraid what people will have to say (and seeing little tiny chicks working out at the gym doesn't help lol)
It has also caused some problems in the relationship because I have such low self esteem I sometimes wonder why my husband is with me, I get really down on myself and think he will leave me for someone smaller. I know I am stupid for thinking this way as he tells me every day he loves me for me and wouldn't change a thing about me. But when you get down on yourself and look in the mirror and see how you look it's like you bring yourself down even more by thinking these things.
I hate thinking like this and I hate being this way which is why I am more determined to lose this weight. So I decided to keep this diary as I think it will help me more.
Looking forward to all the comments and encouragement !!
My weight gain came about when I left my job managing a pet store (running around with the dogs and other animals kept me in shape), and then started a job at a hotel sitting on my butt all day. Well the weight piled on and it's been a struggle ever since to get it off.
I get depressed a lot because of my weight, I won't leave the house because I don't think I look good in anything I own. I won't go to the gym because I am afraid what people will have to say (and seeing little tiny chicks working out at the gym doesn't help lol)
It has also caused some problems in the relationship because I have such low self esteem I sometimes wonder why my husband is with me, I get really down on myself and think he will leave me for someone smaller. I know I am stupid for thinking this way as he tells me every day he loves me for me and wouldn't change a thing about me. But when you get down on yourself and look in the mirror and see how you look it's like you bring yourself down even more by thinking these things.
I hate thinking like this and I hate being this way which is why I am more determined to lose this weight. So I decided to keep this diary as I think it will help me more.
Looking forward to all the comments and encouragement !!